thank you buddy. i dont see it as freedom. and i also dont see this as a victory against some illness ive gotten. i just rediscover with every passing day that i love it to live. i got a life, and i love it. this triggers very beautiful feelings inside of me.
thanks my brother. the hitword is definitely „beautiful“. sometimes we need to look for what is beautiful and also seek for it. life offers at least to me still beautiful things, despite dpdr.
thank you so much. i once written you a pm did you get it at all?😂
to be honest, i believe today i realized that the expectations shouldnt be to get rid of this. i believe it is more of an embracing of what you are or what you became. the moment where i thought and felt „god the sunlight is so beautiful“, i immediately realized this disorder isnt a necessity for not feeling good and never giving up with a „normal“ life + time (3,5 years) contributed to this mindset. so if someone got recently dpdr and read this, the person might think that im crazy and how it can be possible to talk about beautiful things with this disorder at all. but it doesnt happen from today to tomorrow. persistent effort and time is key.
i still feel somehow weird and kinda off. but it doesnt have a power on me anymore. i can have more important, real life related problems than that. and to realize just this, gives me the feeling back to being a human who got a life.. i hope i could explain myself as you know english isnt my native