Depersonalization Support Forum banner

Thoughts on how DP/DR has changed you permanently (not saying brain damage)

1352 Views 5 Replies 5 Participants Last post by  coolwhip27
I think I'm realizing now after 11 years of DP/DR how much different not only my life would have gone but my personality too. I feel like DP has made me much more empathetic (in the long run of course, I think in the short term I was just angry) to other peoples emotions and much less of a conformist or a BRO for lack of a word. I definitely would have kept in the rat race and kept buying needless stuff and chasing stupid pleasures where now I feel like I've lived 50 years in 30 and just want a very few simple things most of the time. I feel like a lot of people, men especially stay 20 permanently and I'm having a hard time getting back into that game. I don't know if it's just a phase or if since I've spent so much time in existential thought I've just seen through the BS. It is really weird becoming so sensitive to how everyone is trying to dominate everyone else all the time except for a few rare people. Again I can't tell if this is paranoia or if I've just become disillusioned with the game we all play. Men want power and women are actually attracted to it and we are all fucking up the world at an alarming rate. I kind of hope I come back to earth in a small sense and these thoughts stop being so loud but I've thought them for so long they are very hard to un-see now. Any thoughts? Much appreciated
1 - 1 of 6 Posts
Its definitely given me some sort of permanent brainfog, hindering my ability to ‘tap’ into my inner self to read or intuit thoughts so I have something to say. Sometimes I’m just super blank minded, most of the time I don’t have anything to say, even though in some social situations I’m desperately trying to come up with something still. It sucks. I know I have social anxiety, generalized anxiety, and OCD as well. But DP seems to suck the fun right out of me, sometimes I even try to fix it. Actually, all the time.

On a positive note, DP has made me immune to experiencing major sadness, though it’s kind of made me a rock that’s not in touch with my emotions, it still has made me stronger. The suffering has made me stronger. No, the suffering has made US stronger. I applaud every one of you for still trying to be a good person through this.
See less See more
1 - 1 of 6 Posts
This is an older thread, you may not receive a response, and could be reviving an old thread. Please consider creating a new thread.