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thoughts about existence - why!?

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Anyone who read one of my lasts posts will know that my DP is virtually not there anymore (maybe 10% still there) which is great but I am still having the same obsessive thoughts about my own existence and the nature of my existence.

Its like my mind is fixated on it. What I can't understand is why I am having these thoughts.Why do they seem so important now. Surely if they were REALLY that important I would have thought of them before in the 21 years I've been alive! Why is it that my existence seems like the freakiest, scariest thing now, but something I would never have bothered to question or even be interested with before my DP.

Its almost as though DP has left its mark on me somehow. Like its opened my mind up to all these thoughts.

I have spoken to my mum and boyfriend about it and asked them their thoughts on it and they both replied that can't even be bothered to think about those type of questions and that they dont find the thought of existence freaky in the slightest. So why I am different to them?

Is it possible for me to ever not have these thoughts and to feel normal again?!

Grrr, I'm just getting so frustrated with myself and am so desperate to feel the way I did before the DP started. Sorry for this rant!

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I also feel there is nobody in my circle of acquaintances who'd understand me and be on the same wavelength. I've asked a couple of my closest friends if they ever think about existence and mortality (I mean really think about it), or get anxious cause of those, but haven't found a soulmate yet. During my life I haven't have many good conversations about those subjects, maybe people just manage so well to distract themselves from thinking anything fundamental.

And what really interests me - is it anxiety that causes these thoughts or the opposite? It's probably a cycle, but which was it that came in the first place? I also would like to know which came first: depression, anxiety or dp.

What is CBT by the way? (shadowness you mentioned) Im sorry of my stupidity, but I'm not native english..
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I also feel there is nobody in my circle of acquaintances who'd understand me and be on the same wavelength. I've asked a couple of my closest friends if they ever think about existence and mortality (I mean really think about it), or get anxious cause of those, but haven't found a soulmate yet. During my life I haven't have many good conversations about those subjects, maybe people just manage so well to distract themselves from thinking anything fundamental.

And what really interests me - is it anxiety that causes these thoughts or the opposite? It's probably a cycle, but which was it that came in the first place? I also would like to know which came first: depression, anxiety or dp.

What is CBT by the way? (shadowness you mentioned) Im sorry of my stupidity, but I'm not native english..
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Johanna said:
And what really interests me - is it anxiety that causes these thoughts or the opposite? It's probably a cycle, but which was it that came in the first place? I also would like to know which came first: depression, anxiety or dp.

What is CBT by the way? (shadowness you mentioned) Im sorry of my stupidity, but I'm not native english..
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CBT is Cognitive Behavioural Therapy :) and you are not stupid so there is no need to apologise :)

i have been told that my dp/dr are products of anxiety and depression...as i have had them for years and now it has taken hold of me more....

and just as i was getting better i had a major set back and then the dp/dr developed...
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Johanna said:
And what really interests me - is it anxiety that causes these thoughts or the opposite? It's probably a cycle, but which was it that came in the first place? I also would like to know which came first: depression, anxiety or dp.

What is CBT by the way? (shadowness you mentioned) Im sorry of my stupidity, but I'm not native english..
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CBT is Cognitive Behavioural Therapy :) and you are not stupid so there is no need to apologise :)

i have been told that my dp/dr are products of anxiety and depression...as i have had them for years and now it has taken hold of me more....

and just as i was getting better i had a major set back and then the dp/dr developed...
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