Literally everything about DPDR is stupid. The symptoms make no sense, the lack of understanding from the world regarding it, the futility of so many so-called treatment options... just ridiculous. It also seems to manifest differently for everyone, which only serves to make it even more obscure and intangible. It's 2017 and we still lack any real answers.
The anxiety side of things is also pretty dumb when you consider it. While largely under control in my own case, at least for the moment, I'll never be able to disregard all the terror and fear that lies just underneath this layer of medication I'm on. What am I ultimately so afraid of? It makes no sense. When I think of things like my grandfather being chased by the Nazis in WWII, and then I'm just sitting here, petrified because I feel a little fucked up all the time. That's just stupid too, in my mind. I know logically that anxiety doesn't necessarily scale accurately with the danger of any given threat, but still makes you think what's fueling all this craziness in our own minds.