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I have no idea if it’s related or not but all my problems started when I took lexapro. I stopped because I was experiencing severe emotional blunting that only got worst once I stopped. I’ve been suffering from this condition for around 8 months or so now. These are my symptoms in the most basic way
My head is blank in the sense I can’t think or “access” my mind anymore. I don’t have emotions anymore or if I do I can only slightly feel negative emotions but nothing like I once had, vibes completely gone, sense of atmosphere
Has been obliterated, My anxiety has been completely gone nervous feelings or just any bodily feeling I just don’t have anymore
Sensory stimuli seems dulled things just don’t “effect” me anymore I look at porn etc and it does absolutely nothing. Overall I now just live in this malaise and apathy like state of intense brain fog.

I can’t even begin to describe really what this has been like on my life but I have read lots of people on this forum have experienced the same, it’s just so scary knowing what I lost as I still remember who I was before all this started. I used to be deeply moved by my emotions and feelings and loved how my mind would think and the depth of it all regardless if I did suffer from anxiety etc I still “enjoyed” things and could sense vibes etc.

I’m starting to wonder if it’s permanent as I haven’t really felt normal at all since this started all those months ago. My blank head felt slightly improved but a week or so ago I had a stressful time at work and I seem to be back at square one so I think stress is deffiently a factor in all this regardless if I can “physically” feel the stress.
 

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The blank mind can be quite scary at first because you start telling yourself all of these distorted thoughts about brain damage and worrying that the feeling will last forever. I’d recommend reading depersonalization affirmations or reading posts on here that are related to your thoughts. Going out, socializing, or playing a video game will help too. You’ll have to stop focusing on it for it to go away.
 

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The blank mind can be quite scary at first because you start telling yourself all of these distorted thoughts about brain damage and worrying that the feeling will last forever. I’d recommend reading depersonalization affirmations or reading posts on here that are related to your thoughts. Going out, socializing, or playing a video game will help too. You’ll have to stop focusing on it for it to go away.
I tried the not focusing on it part for months but it still never went away. I’m only now focusing on it again as I can’t continue to live like this and I don’t know what else to do.
 

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I tried the not focusing on it part for months but it still never went away. I’m only now focusing on it again as I can’t continue to live like this and I don’t know what else to do.
For me, the blank mind lasted roughly 7 months. I eventually ended up hospitalizing myself due to the severe depression and anxiety it was causing me. Trust me, I have also thought of offing myself from this shit. You feel like you’ve already died, so what’s the point anymore. Your happiness was attached to how you experienced life prior to this. You think, “someone could hand me a briefcase with 10 million dollars and I wouldn’t give the damndest”. Find some sort of purpose to keep going, whether that is taking care of a pet, your family, a political cause, the thought of a better future, or being able to eventually help someone else going through this. Try minimizing stress at work. Do you have a pet? Rescuing a pair of kittens, as silly as it sounds, was a major help for me.
 

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For me, the blank mind lasted roughly 7 months. I eventually ended up hospitalizing myself due to the severe depression and anxiety it was causing me. Trust me, I have also thought of offing myself from this shit. You feel like you’ve already died, so what’s the point anymore. Your happiness was attached to how you experienced life prior to this. You think, “someone could hand me a briefcase with 10 million dollars and I wouldn’t give the damndest”. Find some sort of purpose to keep going, whether that is taking care of a pet, your family, a political cause, the thought of a better future, or being able to eventually help someone else going through this. Try minimizing stress at work. Do you have a pet? Rescuing a pair of kittens, as silly as it sounds, was a major help for me.
Absolutely how I feel man. Never experienced anything like it. I think I know stress triggers it as I got a bit better but after a stressful period lately I seemed to have shut down completely again. The worst part is I just feel a disconnect being “me” and my brain like I can’t access my mind at all on a deeper level. Can’t think, feel emotions, recall memories etc. I rescued a cat a couple months ago and he does help for sure. I’m trying to get a job as well to take my mind off it
 

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I know exactly what you mean of how you notice your mind doesn’t work like it used to, as if you’ve had a stroke or something. I would go visit my grandmother in the memory ward and could really empathize with what the dementia patients were experiencing. I know you said you had a stressful event recently at work, could you describe what happened? And I take it you are no longer working there?
 

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I know exactly what you mean of how you notice your mind doesn’t work like it used to, as if you’ve had a stroke or something. I would go visit my grandmother in the memory ward and could really empathize with what the dementia patients were experiencing. I know you said you had a stressful event recently at work, could you describe what happened? And I take it you are no longer working there?
your right it has given me a whole appreciation for the poor souls suffering from dementia as I’m sure it’s very similar to this.

I was working my business that I started a year or so ago. I think it’s partially to blame for this as the stress was immense at times. I’ve dropped it completely in hopes I can recover going into a less stressful job
 

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your right it has given me a whole appreciation for the poor souls suffering from dementia as I’m sure it’s very similar to this.

I was working my business that I started a year or so ago. I think it’s partially to blame for this as the stress was immense at times. I’ve dropped it completely in hopes I can recover going into a less stressful job
Definitely seek out a calm environment. What is your vision and hearing like?
 

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Definitely seek out a calm environment. What is your vision and hearing like?
All my sense’s seem dull to a degree. Like what I see and hear don’t “hit” me the same way or aren’t intense at all. It’s like I’ve lost some hearing and my vision sometimes has this weird look in the dark like I’m looking at static or something
 

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All my sense’s seem dull to a degree. Like what I see and hear don’t “hit” me the same way or aren’t intense at all. It’s like I’ve lost some hearing and my vision sometimes has this weird look in the dark like I’m looking at static or something
It drives me crazy. I become convinced that my senses have deteriorated and are not as sharp as they once were. It really creates the feeling dead effect. Also, make sure you don’t socially isolate yourself. Stay connected with family and friends. Surround yourself with unconditional love
 

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I have no idea if it’s related or not but all my problems started when I took lexapro. I stopped because I was experiencing severe emotional blunting that only got worst once I stopped. I’ve been suffering from this condition for around 8 months or so now. These are my symptoms in the most basic way
My head is blank in the sense I can’t think or “access” my mind anymore. I don’t have emotions anymore or if I do I can only slightly feel negative emotions but nothing like I once had, vibes completely gone, sense of atmosphere
Has been obliterated, My anxiety has been completely gone nervous feelings or just any bodily feeling I just don’t have anymore
Sensory stimuli seems dulled things just don’t “effect” me anymore I look at porn etc and it does absolutely nothing. Overall I now just live in this malaise and apathy like state of intense brain fog.

I can’t even begin to describe really what this has been like on my life but I have read lots of people on this forum have experienced the same, it’s just so scary knowing what I lost as I still remember who I was before all this started. I used to be deeply moved by my emotions and feelings and loved how my mind would think and the depth of it all regardless if I did suffer from anxiety etc I still “enjoyed” things and could sense vibes etc.

I’m starting to wonder if it’s permanent as I haven’t really felt normal at all since this started all those months ago. My blank head felt slightly improved but a week or so ago I had a stressful time at work and I seem to be back at square one so I think stress is deffiently a factor in all this regardless if I can “physically” feel the stress.
Dude, you just literally described exactly how I'm feeling right now. I once had intense DP with anxiety, intrusive thoughts and all that, but this is just different.

I fell ill about 3 weeks ago and had to go on a 5 days antibiotics treatment. I don't know how that managed to mess up my mind, probably the physical stress.

I look at my family, the girl I love, even porn but I can't feel anything.
I don't react to movies, songs (damn, how much I miss the feeling I get from listening to Coldplay).
All my emotional intelligence gone. I struggle to maintain conversations with my closest friends, resigned to avoiding them even.

I don't know how long I can go on like this
 

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I look at my family, the girl I love, even porn but I can't feel anything.
I don't react to movies, songs (damn, how much I miss the feeling I get from listening to Coldplay).
All my emotional intelligence gone. I struggle to maintain conversations with my closest friends, resigned to avoiding them even.

I don't know how long I can go on like this
Hang in there pal! I'm reading this site rn and there's a lot of hopeful stuff.
 

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I have no idea if it’s related or not but all my problems started when I took lexapro.
I took a number of SSRIs and SNRIs and Tricyclics over the years. I had taken 40mg of Lexapro a day and was told by a pharmacist that it was a rather large dose. Yet, Lexapro
gave me zero side effects while the others gave me sexual dysfunction. Your and my response to Lexapro differ significantly. Is it possible there was something else in play besides
the Lexapro that caused your emotional numbing? I also experienced loss of positive emotions and also libido in conjunction with a powerful temporal lobe seizure at age 17. It took
a while, but I got most of my emotions and libido back. Good luck.
 
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