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Hey guys, ive had dp/dr for 2+ years, soon 3 i beilive, i dont keep count very specific, but soon 3 years. Resently i met a girl and i saw her like every weekend for this month, but in the weekdays i work and she lives 1h away so we only met on the weekends, so we havent seen eachother super much but not super little either hehe. My dp effects me extremly much regarding my emotions, im 100% numb and cant feel anything at all. So i couldnt give this girl the real love and expressness of real emotions, but i liked her in my thoughts if that makes sense. In the begining it seemed abit overwhelming, i was like how is this possible, how am i getting a girlfriend with dp, weird and sad and nice at the same time. She seemed to really like it, but i suppose after each time we saw eachother she started noticing that theres no "fire" between us or that im very bad at talking, and expressing emotions and all the other things your supposed to do in a relationship, so i got a text saying she likes me etc etc but its a bad time, and i respect it and understand her, i wasnt prepared or certain at all that this was something that i wanted but now i know i probably want to be with someone. I know for sure that the dp "hides" the real me that can express things, say things, show love etc etc, so the dp is a big factor to why it didnt work between us, shes abit younger than me and still in school and im working so we have diffrent lives also, but i know if i wouldnt have had dp i would be able to show so much love that would probably make it work! xd

Im not sure why im making this thread, i guess i want to type it out to people who understand, more you guys that have or had relationships, any tips? Anyways, since this has happened, and im probably not going to see her for much more, right now atleast, she also typed "we will see" kinda so we will see in future, maybe things change. I resently moved to an apartment, i resently got a permenant eployment, i have a car etc, i have everything to be happy if you ask society, (exept love) but i see no point in doing anything, i dont understand how ive kept on with work without coming late etc etc, but my days only exist of shitty thoughts 24/7 then doing boring stuff, sleep, rince repeat, so this weekend im thinking of taking mushrooms to see if my brain can grow some new cells or give me a new perspective on things, anyone have experience with shrooms regarding dp/dr? Sure i could skip doing them cuz its risky, but doing all the same things over and over is getting so hard :p

Thanks guys, sorry probably hard to understand post
 

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go for microdosing. a full trip could mess you up more so i wouldnt risk it
Hey, thanks for your anwser. I ended up taking 2.5g of "psilocybe cubensis" i had almost no visuals at all, maybe at some points i kinda saw some corners of things move slightly, not even sure. Barely anything at all in the visual field, alot in my head though and a defenant change in how my body feels, dp persists, i might even be deeper in it now, im not sure. Wouldnt recommend!
 
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