I agree with you . Until you let go of the anxiety fear this will be miserable ! It does take practice you have to train your brain so to speak .To not react with fear to just let it go keep going !!
i realised what i was doing wrong for sure probably about 6 weeks ago and did something about it straight away. You can start this second.Everyone's case is different, but how long did it take you from the time you realized this to the time it stopped being an issue?
a lot of free time......aha what do you mean?What do you mean by practise what did you do? did u have alot of free time or wha?
Second that Lol!'it does take practise and bollocks'