[pfpc]

Nothing grips me more than the horror of being alone -- the disquiet of having oneself at the mercy of oneself. A grown up man cries out inside everytime he comes home to an empty house, estranged from a book or the television, looking aghast at the sense of reality that has come to encompass his life. Pure desperation.

A month passes, and then another, and then another, and before long I realize that time is my enemy -- the longer I am alone, the lonelier I feel.

It's a lot of hard work, isn't it?

 

[Guest]

The one thing that all of us here need are people to share our lives with and i'm finding this increasingly difficult. I'm burning bridges all over the place. My mental debilitation has surpassed that which many would like to handle and I see myself as a burden on myself and on others. argggggggggggggggggggggg

 

[Blake]

Thats wierd. I was about to post about being alone.

Since my dp/dr onset in 01' , I have learned how deep that hole can get. What I struggle with is that I feel like I am completely alone in this. I am not going to get megatron depressed.whiny here, but the fact is that (as we all can relate to somewhat) noone in my world understands how I feel.

I know everyone dp or not goes through this. People feel like the world just doesn't "get" them. This goes beyond a temporary feeling like that.

Can I get over the fact that none of my friends or family don't/can't understand why I am suffering? Will they ever?

I don't want someone holding my hand saying, " I understand, Blake, you feel like a robot. You have no emotions." That is ridiculous. The point is that I KNOW I am alone in this struggle. That I am solely responsible for overcoming it.

I can lean on support if I need it, but ultimately it will be me who gets out of this. Does that make me a stronger person? Or does it make me a failure because I have yet to get better on my own?

How do you all deal with feelings like this (if you have them) ?

 

[sleepingbeauty]

i will always be alone. i cant seem to convince anyone to be with me once they get to know who i really am. a paranoid dillusional wierdo.

 

[Guest]

This will cheer you up

Actually, its a whole lot worse now....shit

 

[Guest]

This room is so full of despair and regret i cannot see how this room can help people with our problem. All this room does is enforce and influence ourselves to feel better that all of us are goin through the same stuff. We express our saddest emotions but not our happy ones. I understand our sad emotions precede our happy ones but with positivity there is hope and where theres hope theres a will to overcome.

 

[sleepingbeauty]

i dont think even this can cheer me up.

or this.

maybe this.

nope.

 

[Guest]

Well done Sleepy.....Elvis cheered me up.......talk about sex on legs,he's so revolting I can't stop looking at him :shock:

 

[dreamcatcher]

thought id join this thread

 

[Guest]

Why does Elvis have a vagina?

 

[Guest]

its a mangina