[Guest]

Hola gang,
I am new to this site, however I am certainly NOT new to depersonalization! In fact my journey began over 2 and a half years ago, which of course as I am sure everyone here will understand seems like EITHER 20 years ago, or it could have been last week. Anyway, not to bore anyone with the same ol details...but I did see that some ppl in here are curious as to the "enlightenment" idea regarding DP. Just so you know, I am interested as well. Because like some of you, I too have often wondered: "have I reached some altered state of consciousness"? or am I just crazy? So in closing, I am curious too, so if anyone has anything good to share I am all for that! Also too...I am a great listener and have lots of great experience to share. Though, not a train counselor or anything even remotely close to that, I have been known to give some great advice.

Again, I am new here so if I come off a little too weird, you just got to get to know me a bit better, but then again aren't we all...at least a little?

Thanks for your time.

T.

 

[Guest]

I am one of the people that was discussing enlightenment because I am Buddhist. The only problem for me is depersonalization feels really scary to me. DP for me is accompanied by an intense irrational fear and numbness, I am on "auto pilot". When I have moments of enlightenment I feel "grounded" yet detached at the same time, I have a sense of peace and "oneness" that is so intense I could almost cry with joy. But as Lydia said, maybe the next time I have an episode of DP I should try to experience it in a spiritual way. What are your DP episodes like? Do you meditate at all? One more thing, don't worry about sounding weird, I am VERY weird and I am sure alot of us with DP feel the same way! Welcome to the board!
Alessa

 

[Guest]

Hi there,

Thank you for responding to my post. I am glad to know that there are others like me who have DP. At first it seemed like there was no one. In fact my doctors and therapists had no idea what I was talking about when I mentioned DP! Anyway, I sometimes do meditate, however there are many times where I am in such a "trance like" state already, that meditation would for me, would be counterproductive because it can take me even FURTHER away from reality (not good). I will never forget the first time I "realized" that there was a huge problem. I remember sitting at a table, having lunch, out on the patio of a very nice restaurant. The weather was perfect, and things were going well...UNTILL...for a split second in time, I would have sworn on a stack of bibles, that I was DEAD, and that the person I was with was going to tell me that it was OK to pass on to "the other side". Needless to say, when I realized what I was experiencing, I "freaked out". Although I didn't freak out publicly, inside I was devistated!
But that was a few years ago now, and I am doing better. I have learned how to "deal" much better with it all, and there are indeed times where I do feel as if I am experiencing life on a much more ENLIGHTENED level. I am now to the point where TIME has become irrelevant in my world. In fact that is going to be the subject of my next posting...THE FEELING OF TIMELESSNESS. Is this something experienced by you and by the others as well?? I am very curious to find out.
Thanks again for your time and for responding to my initial posting.

T.

 

[Guest]

You mentioned feeling "dead" onetime. That same thing happened to me, I was a passenger in a car and suddenly felt like my soul had slipped out of me and that I was no longer there, Scared the heck out of me!
Alessa