[Nevermore93]

First off i want to state that i never gotten a panic attack or suffered from DP/DR due to marijuana use in the past, but i just wanted you guys to know how sensitive you can be to substances you were once used to, in a depersonalized state.

My last smoking sesh was around early december, two weeks after the onset of DP (due to a spontaneous nocturnal panic attack from work related stress.) i smoked once or twice following that night and felt ok for the most part, and didn't know much about the disorder, so i figured id try it a third time. my tolerance was very low at this point. it was around midnight when i had two small bong hits, chilled out to some music and within minutes felt so fantastic, it was like one of the first few times i got high, just felt so happy, smiling for no reason at all, like floating on a cloud . then i got ahead of myself and said, "fuck it, i can hit it two more times, what could go wrong?" big mistake....

After the next few tokes it slowly crept in and i was feeling more and more intensely euphoric until around 12:30 ish i was staring off into my room, just felt completely out of my body, as i couldn't even hear music at this point. i hit an all time peak when i had a major depth perception change. my bed sheets, laptop ect... looked like it was miles away, and i felt so tiny as everything seemed to blur and fade away. all of this only lasted for a couple seconds. this has happened to me before when i would stare at something for too long when really stoned; but i would just quickly shake my head to snap back into reality, so i tried doing the same thing, but when i snapped out of it i crashed into an anxious trip for the rest of the night. i wasn't anything near a panic attack, but regardless was filled with anxiety and extremely weighed down. i remember closing my eyes and seeing a vision of myself from far away, cross-legged with crazy colored patterns all around. i was trembling like crazy for the next 3 hours. i didn't want to be this stoned but i rode it out till 5 am then finally took a xanax to take the edge off & knock me out since i couldn't stand being awake any longer.

i never wanted to get that intensely baked ever again. the next day i went trout fishing and felt pretty out of it, following an increase in DP symptoms and depression for the next few weeks. i stayed away from pot since then and will continue to do so for a long time. know your limits or avoid it altogether!

 

[Tanith]

I took weed for the first time a considerable time after my DP developed. I made the mistake of taking a lot of it while drunk. Was sitting in a car with my friend and while I was aware of things I physically couldn't move for what felt like hours.

Other times I've had weed and I could feel myself spacing out and getting close to a point where I felt like I was going to space out completely from everything. But I always force myself back at that point as I'm scared of what would happen if I passed that threshold. I'm at a stage now where I'm going through a bad period in my life and my DP has made me more spaced out naturally so I'm avoiding weed at all costs as I don't want to know what effect it would have on me in this state.

 

[flat]

My dp was brought on by an anxiety attack over relationship problems and not weed...even though I smoked it on occasion in the past. The ONLY time I totally snapped out of my dp was just after taking a couple tokes from a joint. It didn't last long and dp came flowing back. I couldn't replicate that experience again. I think maybe the weed either had a lot of cannabidiol in it or it just relaxed me to the point where I let go of my dp. Then I read on google that there were studies that found out that "very small amounts" of pot can increase serotonin and have dramatic antidepressant abilities... BUT... higher amounts have the opposite effect. Since I hardly started smoking when I felt cured it may have been that antidepressant reaction too. It's all very confusing.

 

[Jkbobell]

I totally understand about snapping out of the dp after smoking. I have delt with chronic dp for 40 yrs and not until recently knew what it even was. Anyway I started smoking daily for the past couple of years and it did help. it was the ONLY thing that helped after all the different meds I had taken. But back in Nov. I was doing my usual rotine smoking and put the bong away for the night and about 15 mins later it hit. Went to the er and all that. But it was the panic attack along with the weed that triggered it i think.

Like I said looking back now after I know what all this crap is now thru the years the dp was always triggered by a panic attack. Or some major stressful situation.

I think I have read about the low dose high dose thing also. And for me I totally agree. It did without a doubt help with all this. I have some other crap disorder also. And also this is all very conffusing especially when the dp is going on.

 

[Guest]

I've had the same stance on weed for 10 years, a dissociative drug should be completely avoided with a dissociative disorder.

 

[Alan]

Drugs just don't work for us; this isn't a moral issue, it's simply a fact like some people are lactose intolerant or allergic to nuts.