I’m the same exact way. I think on some level I used to do it before I got anxiety and dpdr but now I have to try hard not to do it. It makes me so uncomfortable. The higher my anxiety the more I feel that sensation. It’s so bizarre. Fucking hyperawareness.
The Best Way To Explain My Solipsism-Type Derealization
Hey everyone.
It's taken me a while, but I think iv'e finally found a somewhat simple (okay, not that simple) way to describe my DR.
It basically feels like I'm the main character in a movie that I'm acting in, and that I memorized the script in my head to a t. But when it actually comes time the shoot the movie, I forget all the lines until a split second before they're said.
Here's a more complicated (?) explanation.
Everytime someone is speaking, I'll automatically focus on their words without meaning to, and then all of a sudden I can literally speak their words the same time as them. Someone told me on my last post that I'm just really good at noticing patterns, but I find that really hard to believe since I can't predict a sentence before it's said, only while it's being said.
It's gotten to the point where the only thing I'll listen to is music that I know because at least then I'll have an excuse for being able to talk along with it.
It's gotten to the point now where I literally have to watch things with subtitles just so I can't hear anything. There are times when I wish I was born deaf so none of this would've happened.
this post is a mess lmao
It's taken me a while, but I think iv'e finally found a somewhat simple (okay, not that simple) way to describe my DR.
It basically feels like I'm the main character in a movie that I'm acting in, and that I memorized the script in my head to a t. But when it actually comes time the shoot the movie, I forget all the lines until a split second before they're said.
Here's a more complicated (?) explanation.
Everytime someone is speaking, I'll automatically focus on their words without meaning to, and then all of a sudden I can literally speak their words the same time as them. Someone told me on my last post that I'm just really good at noticing patterns, but I find that really hard to believe since I can't predict a sentence before it's said, only while it's being said.
It's gotten to the point where the only thing I'll listen to is music that I know because at least then I'll have an excuse for being able to talk along with it.
It's gotten to the point now where I literally have to watch things with subtitles just so I can't hear anything. There are times when I wish I was born deaf so none of this would've happened.
this post is a mess lmao
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