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Hey everyone.

It's taken me a while, but I think iv'e finally found a somewhat simple (okay, not that simple) way to describe my DR.

It basically feels like I'm the main character in a movie that I'm acting in, and that I memorized the script in my head to a t. But when it actually comes time the shoot the movie, I forget all the lines until a split second before they're said.

Here's a more complicated (?) explanation.

Everytime someone is speaking, I'll automatically focus on their words without meaning to, and then all of a sudden I can literally speak their words the same time as them. Someone told me on my last post that I'm just really good at noticing patterns, but I find that really hard to believe since I can't predict a sentence before it's said, only while it's being said.

It's gotten to the point where the only thing I'll listen to is music that I know because at least then I'll have an excuse for being able to talk along with it.

It's gotten to the point now where I literally have to watch things with subtitles just so I can't hear anything. There are times when I wish I was born deaf so none of this would've happened.

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That's something everyone can do if they focus hard enough. We all have speech patterns that are unique to us as individuals, but if someone paid really close attention, they could probably figure out at least the gist of what someone was gonna say as they're saying it based on sentence structure or content. You're overthinking it and applying a crazy meaning to something that's pretty normal.

If anything that's a really good skill to have, being very attentive to people and what they say.
 

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I’m the same exact way. I think on some level I used to do it before I got anxiety and dpdr but now I have to try hard not to do it. It makes me so uncomfortable. The higher my anxiety the more I feel that sensation. It’s so bizarre. Fucking hyperawareness.
 

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I'm the same exact way. I think on some level I used to do it before I got anxiety and dpdr but now I have to try hard not to do it. It makes me so uncomfortable. The higher my anxiety the more I feel that sensation. It's so bizarre. Fucking hyperawareness.
yeaaah it sucks :/
 

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Is this kind of a de ja vu thing? Because I would always get that. I still get it sometimes actually, I never used to get it before DP. Like for instance, I was watching Better Call Saul last week and there was a scene where I just felt like I had seen before in the distant past. But I know that's impossible, it was a brand new episode. IDK. It's really strange.
 

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Ive had this before too. Its definently like having a de ja vu feeling constantly. Thing you have to remember is verbal communication is very simple with built in patterns and its easy to predict a persons reply. Your brain is also in tune to body language which can subconsciously tell you what the most likely response will be, espessially if its someone you know. It feels like words spill out of you like a script because your on auto pilot. Idk if my comment helps but thats just my two sense. It gets easier tho.
 

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I have DR but not the thing you're talking about. DR to me is like being an invisible wall, a ghost and im watching what's happening around me from above
 
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