[Absent]

I'd be interested to hear if this is familiar to you. The non experience of everything for me applies to time and memory too - not surprising since I don't feel real in the world or feel what's happening 'across' time. Do you retain experience of past weeks or years? As well as the daily loss of reality it is the non-actuality of things happening in time that is painful. Do you understand that other years have happened? I hear, for example, someone saying 'back in 2001' and I just don't get it. It's gone? The same applies to ages - how could I have been 26 etc? There is a pain of not having realness in the world and time. It's partly because now I'm doing better - so cannot comprehend time passed while I was gone.

 

[falling_free]

Yeh I have no concept of time anymore, Time seems to have just gone *puff* just like that into nothing.

Well supposadly time is an illusion anyway, Maybe no time is a more real sense of the cosmos, I mean time is just relative yeh, Fast or slow depending on you (Which cruicilly with DP there isn't A you) so I guess it makes sense that you wouldn't feel time.

Being a void sucks though .

I can't really sturture well today, but blah bit of a ramble there from my fucked up and twisted non event of a mind.

Have a nice day fellow mist people.

 

[blackwinded]

my problem is that time seems to be going so fast, that i can't understand that i am already 18 years old. This problem started when i was 16. Everything since then is a blurr and i can't remember much of it. The things i do remember are really vivid, yet feel like a dream and like i was really far away. It seems like i skipped two years of my life. When looking back on things from the last 2 years, they feel like they were just days ago. It gets real depressing, because everything is going so fast and i can't keep up...i feel like i'll be an old woman before much longer.

I don't do much these days, since i am not able to work or anything, but when i actually do have a few things to do, i feel as if i have no time to do them. Even though i really have plenty of free time all the time.

It' interesting because i dont think most people really think about how important it is to have a normal sense of time passing, until it gets all screwed up. :?

-Becka

 

[Da'Burgh]

Yeah, this is what bothers me the most. Thinking back on something that happened even earlier in the day seems like I just imagined it. But, it happened.

 

[MrMortgage]

It' interesting because i dont think most people really think about how important it is to have a normal sense of time passing, until it gets all screwed up. :?

-Becka

Right on! To take it a step further I think that people don't know how great it is to be "normal". I remember I thought my life was hard before the disorder... Now I wish I was back the way I was 2 years ago...

Makes me want to go out and tell everyone that their life is great! Enjoy it while they can. :?

 

[livinginhell333]

yea mortgage if i said that to any family member or anybody else they would tell me that i think too much, why do you think about these things. the reason is cause normal people stress about like gf's and bf's. o my life sucks i don't have a gf or i'm not rich when really they have a lot of things that they are just not noticing. be happy that you don't have dp and you don't have to wake up every day feeling not real and like you don't exist. i hate when people complain about trivial matters that aren't important. those are the people that i would want to have dp for like a day, then they could see.

 

[jill10]

Yep i get it too

even after watching a vidoe of my graduation at uni I still dont feel as if it took place.
I have been known to sit at the table for hours on end just doing nothing, as if it were seconds ago i sat down. I feel like im doing a time warp. My care assitant and partner asks me were i have been for the last half an hour and i dont know.
Walking the dogs I take hours but to me it seems as sudden as the clap of a hand. That is why I am not allowed out on my own.
The time a car takes to reach me dont make sense it could be anywhere at anytime lifes is so complex.
all the best
jill