I wanted to thank the two people who responded to my post. I means a lot knowing that you are not alone. Do you ever find yourself questioning life in general. Like am I really here? Have I imagined this all? The only thing that brings me comfort with this is that I know I shouldn't be thinking this way, and that there is some sanity left. How do you think that we can be living in this hell and still be able to act completely normal and in control to other people? Some mornings I wake up and wonder is this the day that I am going to completely lose it? I am so scared and feel so alone any more. I find myself pulling away from the people I love because every thing feels so foreign. Thanks in advance for your advice.