[livinginhell333]

any of you guys ever do that. i find myself doing that probably because i want someone to hear me and to hear my pain. like my roomate, but i probably shouldn't do that because then he will think i am crazy, but like in the morning i talk to myself, but i'm actually trying to talk to god. He does not listen though. i just want to know if you guys talk to yourself too. espiacially when you have no one else to talk to and your tired of explaining your self and you have nothing to talk about with anything like me.

before this happended i had lots to talk about with everyone and whatever was on my mind i would talk about it, no matter how crazy or random it was. i used to be really random. and also the mirror thing i hate looking at myself in the mirror because i see the me of old and then i look away from the mirror and i see the me of now and i'd rather be the me of old and everytime i look at the mirror i see the person i used to be and i just say hey thats not who i am right now. its all just weird and confusing. i still feel real light too and i am beginning to think i will feel this way for a while. what really bothers me is not feeling love. i am incapable of feeling any sort of love towards anyone or anything and i feel guilty because i used to love a lot of things and people and had a big heart, but now just a big empty void that i hope gets re-filled and re-fueled soon.

 

[shadowness]

i hardly ever...if ever talk to myself anymoer as i am so conscious about what i am doing/do not feel like i am doing :roll:

i am too scared to talk to myself...not because i am scared of being two people and that...just because my voice does not sound like my own or in my control...so speak as little as possible...

before dp and dr i used to talk to myself a hell of a lot...and sing to myself a lot too...but i hardly sing now and when i do it freaks me out!

 

[Scattered]

I talk to myself all the time, except I make sure that it is just in my mind and not out loud. Its mostly rehearsal for conversations, real or imagined. Or it can simply be a way to work out a complicated idea or something like that.

 

[livinginhell333]

b4 dp i used to talk to myself all the time in my mind and i think i had dp b4 i smoked, but it didn't bother me. because i always over-analyzed everything, but i thought i was just a person that had a special skill of seeing people on the inside and observing things on the outside, but i questioned everything. so i thought it was just a normal thing to do, but now i can't really see people on the inside because i don't know who i am and i have no emotion. i don't remember the last time i actually felt really angry. its kind of sad actually that i can't do or feel the same as i used to.

 

[Guest]

all the time, mostly because im bored and its a way of coping with this stuff

 

[Inflammed]

I talk very often to myself too, mostly when I'm not feeling good, the good part of me is talking loudly to the DR part of me.

And I think it's a good process to exteriorise yourself, for not staying closed within your worried mind.
I tell jokes out loud anywhere, to myself and laught, and enjoy. 8)

- Good point Inflammed,
- *Thanks
- Going for a smoke ?
- * Hell yeah !
- Let's go man
- You have fire ?
- Sure
- DP sucks
- I know man I know, let it suck...
- later then
- sure...be good now.
- Of course...
-Push Submit before,
- * ok thanks

 

[university girl]

i think there's been a few threads started on this in the past. do a search for them if you want more replies on the topic.