Suicide.

Unfortunately what i'm about to say will rub some people the wrong way but it is my true story.

I have been there, after the meds, after being in and out of hospital, after countless months searching for the answer and getting no where, I felt it.

I felt the sudden brick wall that smacks you in the face and says there's only one way out of the pain now!

In that moment it could have went very bad for my family if i had done it, and imagining them finding out I had done it completely shattered my heart into pieces.

At that moment when I couldn't be any lower, I found God.

I was never religious, I didn't even know how to be. I thought religion is embarrassing now a days but something was definitely there telling me that it wanted to help me.

I said in my head God how could it be you, I've never even bothered to consider you in my life, If i believe in you now I would just be using you to get out of this!

and when I said that the feeling of pure relief came over me, not a euphoric feeling but the feeling of weight being lifted.

I was hooked by something. I started going to church every sunday, then every sunday and wednesday. and eventually the pastor told me that god finds people in there weakest, rawest state, and when you doubt that he would want to help you is when he does.

Few months later I now try and help people with dp instead of asking for help!

Reason? - I'm Cured

Science? science didn't take me out of dp and it clearly hasn't taken you.

you've been struggling to find an answer for 5 years because your relying on science.

what does science know about dp?

there's no meds to cure it, no therapy, no program or adaption. nothing!

if you were truly depress your stubborn-ness would have subsided and you would have been open to any idea just like what happened to me,

if you read what I said I didn't give 2 F***'s about god before but I was in such a bad place that I NEEDED something, even just for hope.

Believe this or not but please don't disrespect other peoples belief.

You need to have faith, I'm sure you've noticed how s**t life is?

Well, that's the whole point. we are supposed to doubt god, were supposed to think science has disprove him.

We are supposed to go through the negative things in life that make him seem a fantasy

because when your in the worst place you could imagine, farthest from all hope.

If you still have faith and call on him in the depths of hopelessness. Then, you will be saved.

but don't stop. because you will be tempted to believe otherwise, trust me i've been there.

I'm sorry if it seems like I'm trying to Bible bash anyone but this is just my story.

I remember being in the state of complete fear trying desperately to find an answer,

I knew there was no answer in science, no pills, nothing. (YET!)

Everyone was just "accepting it" or some s**t

So I decided, they may be an answer, it may or may not work I don't know

but right now science definitely doesn't work so I can only give it a go.