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Hello everyone,

Have anyone noticed a significant change of their self-image living with DPDR?

I realize, we to begin with, lack a proper presence of self, but personally, I've come along way, and was able to retain a tiny bit of what it means to be me, very tiny but effective (and believe some of you have too). However, I'm always, constantly, struggling with some alteration of self-image. Before it all, I had always been deep down such a confident person. I was self-possessed and very independent on so many levels. And it formed the core of my identity. Now, I find myself having these negative thoughts about myself. I even view certain things from the outside so negatively when they're nothing personal. I find it that it stems from the fact that I lack the presence of me. I despise that I could be outside with people and very much not present enough that... I feel dumb. Ah that was so hard to say.

But it is so fucking hard you know? My relationship with others and how my DPDR affects it, affects my self-image pretty badly. I hate how I can't a lot of times react at the right time, or have something to say, you know? And I don't know how I can give myself a break and establish that it is that I am suffering from a disorder and it has nothing to do with my self-worth.

There were times where this wasn't a problem anymore, but it comes back, and I think it should be overcome rather than avoided, dunno how though.

Anyone struggling particularly with this?
 

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I feel very bad about myself.. And i really cannot control it. I feel disgusting and like i have no place in this world anymore. I constantly talk bad about myself in my head. And sometimes i just feel so ugly that i wanna stay home and never go out.
I know i have a disorder and if i was normal i would never think this way.
Im living in very painful reality. It sucks but what can i do?
 

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I feel very bad about myself.. And i really cannot control it. I feel disgusting and like i have no place in this world anymore. I constantly talk bad about myself in my head. And sometimes i just feel so ugly that i wanna stay home and never go out.
I know i have a disorder and if i was normal i would never think this way.
Im living in very painful reality. It sucks but what can i do?
It sucks very fucking much.

However... you're not disgusting nor ugly. You're suffering from a disorder that anyone of these people in your life who haven't lived could never imagine it nor understand.

It is so big that it puts you under its shadow. You know, it's hard for me to tell myself this and accept it 100% or even 90% because we're critical of ourselves, but here I would like to remind you of all that.
 
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