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Hello everyone,
Have anyone noticed a significant change of their self-image living with DPDR?
I realize, we to begin with, lack a proper presence of self, but personally, I've come along way, and was able to retain a tiny bit of what it means to be me, very tiny but effective (and believe some of you have too). However, I'm always, constantly, struggling with some alteration of self-image. Before it all, I had always been deep down such a confident person. I was self-possessed and very independent on so many levels. And it formed the core of my identity. Now, I find myself having these negative thoughts about myself. I even view certain things from the outside so negatively when they're nothing personal. I find it that it stems from the fact that I lack the presence of me. I despise that I could be outside with people and very much not present enough that... I feel dumb. Ah that was so hard to say.
But it is so fucking hard you know? My relationship with others and how my DPDR affects it, affects my self-image pretty badly. I hate how I can't a lot of times react at the right time, or have something to say, you know? And I don't know how I can give myself a break and establish that it is that I am suffering from a disorder and it has nothing to do with my self-worth.
There were times where this wasn't a problem anymore, but it comes back, and I think it should be overcome rather than avoided, dunno how though.
Anyone struggling particularly with this?
Have anyone noticed a significant change of their self-image living with DPDR?
I realize, we to begin with, lack a proper presence of self, but personally, I've come along way, and was able to retain a tiny bit of what it means to be me, very tiny but effective (and believe some of you have too). However, I'm always, constantly, struggling with some alteration of self-image. Before it all, I had always been deep down such a confident person. I was self-possessed and very independent on so many levels. And it formed the core of my identity. Now, I find myself having these negative thoughts about myself. I even view certain things from the outside so negatively when they're nothing personal. I find it that it stems from the fact that I lack the presence of me. I despise that I could be outside with people and very much not present enough that... I feel dumb. Ah that was so hard to say.
But it is so fucking hard you know? My relationship with others and how my DPDR affects it, affects my self-image pretty badly. I hate how I can't a lot of times react at the right time, or have something to say, you know? And I don't know how I can give myself a break and establish that it is that I am suffering from a disorder and it has nothing to do with my self-worth.
There were times where this wasn't a problem anymore, but it comes back, and I think it should be overcome rather than avoided, dunno how though.
Anyone struggling particularly with this?
