[SkittleRainbows]

Please go to http://www.dpselfhel...5-my-dpdr-blog/ for more info on my symptoms.

So here is what has been going on:

• A few days ago, I suddenly felt better. I felt better so fast that it freaked myself out. So I started worrying again.
• Then there was a time when I was trying to remember something that happened a few minutes earlier. I was thinking so hard about it that it frustrated me so much I was about to cry.
• Places are starting to look a bit unfamiliar. This especially happens when I look at it/think about it too much. The same thing happens with words and what people say.
• My brains feels like it's full of worry, like it's the only thing I can think of. It doesn't feel like it's functioning properly.
• My head feels foggy and feels like there's pressure on it.
• My memory seems mixed up. Like I can't remember a bunch. I find it hard to remember some things well, which frustrates me since I'm young. It feels like I can only remember the general things that have happened. Like all the important parts and what's going on right now. I don't wanna get memory loss!
• Sometimes it feels like I'm dreaming, like I don't exactly know what's going on at the moment. For instance, right now, it feels like I'm writing this automatically, but in my mind, I'm questioning myself, Wait a minute, what am I doing here again?
• It kind of feels like I'm doing things automatically. Like I don't feel in control of my body. It feels like a video game. Like I'm just sitting back, watching myself go through my daily life. I communicate just fine.
• It seems hard to keep track of time well. I'm always stressing out about what day it is and how much time has gone by. Like if a week went by too fast, I would start worrying about it. I'm afraid I'm going to lose the ability to keep track of what day it is!
• I'm afraid that if I'm not aware about these things I'm going to go crazy and that I'm not going to know what's going on. That I'll be clueless and lost.

I think I might be worrying too much about these things. Is it possible that I'm making myself feel this way? That when I think something is happening, I make myself believe it? Should I tell myself to relax? Oh, and is it possible that malnutrition and lack of exercise can cause this? I haven't been eating much because I've been worried and I've mostly stayed home because I'm afraid to go somewhere where most of the symptoms happen.