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·Hi!
I feel kind of embarrassed posting this, but oh well.
I'm still quite young, but I have NEVER DONE DRUGS.
I have, however, always been somewhat of a perfectionist. Now in high school, I've been obsessing about excellence all of the time. Compounding this, I have been having issues with my family. For instance, I can?t seem to get along with my brother at all. Although this might not seem like much, it has definitely taken a toll on me. I am also aware that my family is prone to mental illness. I know several of my relatives are currently suffering from depression, and of one that committed suicide awhile back.
Anyways, for a few years, I have progressively been having constant feelings of depersonalization/derealization. I always feel 'dazed,' unable to concentrate, forgetful, and tired (probably due to the stress). It seems like everything is so surreal, and almost like a dream. The worst part, however, is that nothing seems real. I feel completely drained of many of my emotions. These all cause problems for me, because I find that I have to compensate for my lack of concentration by studying something over and over until it finally just sinks in. I am always making blunders that make people around me frustrated and angry, which makes me feel like a total idiot. I always worry about forgetting relatives and happy memories, so I have started a journal to help me remember things that I don?t want to forget. I know that memory problems may be common in some people, but not like this in teenagers. I could go on and on, but I think you get the idea.
As I alluded to, this problem has been around for a few years, but has only progressively gotten worse. I only recently learned about these types of disorders in a psychology class that I?m taking. Although this could be worse, I?m still worried. Is this problem stress-related in your opinion(s)? Have I inherited some sort of predisposition toward mental illness from my family? What on earth should I do, because this is real?! I wish somebody could give me some pointers, because I feel like I?m going crazy. I?m only a high schooler, but it seems like I am bearing the burdens of an adult.
Thanks for any help.
I feel kind of embarrassed posting this, but oh well.
I'm still quite young, but I have NEVER DONE DRUGS.
I have, however, always been somewhat of a perfectionist. Now in high school, I've been obsessing about excellence all of the time. Compounding this, I have been having issues with my family. For instance, I can?t seem to get along with my brother at all. Although this might not seem like much, it has definitely taken a toll on me. I am also aware that my family is prone to mental illness. I know several of my relatives are currently suffering from depression, and of one that committed suicide awhile back.
Anyways, for a few years, I have progressively been having constant feelings of depersonalization/derealization. I always feel 'dazed,' unable to concentrate, forgetful, and tired (probably due to the stress). It seems like everything is so surreal, and almost like a dream. The worst part, however, is that nothing seems real. I feel completely drained of many of my emotions. These all cause problems for me, because I find that I have to compensate for my lack of concentration by studying something over and over until it finally just sinks in. I am always making blunders that make people around me frustrated and angry, which makes me feel like a total idiot. I always worry about forgetting relatives and happy memories, so I have started a journal to help me remember things that I don?t want to forget. I know that memory problems may be common in some people, but not like this in teenagers. I could go on and on, but I think you get the idea.
As I alluded to, this problem has been around for a few years, but has only progressively gotten worse. I only recently learned about these types of disorders in a psychology class that I?m taking. Although this could be worse, I?m still worried. Is this problem stress-related in your opinion(s)? Have I inherited some sort of predisposition toward mental illness from my family? What on earth should I do, because this is real?! I wish somebody could give me some pointers, because I feel like I?m going crazy. I?m only a high schooler, but it seems like I am bearing the burdens of an adult.
Thanks for any help.
