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I sometimes experience a kind of random "stream of conciousness" type thinking where my brain tends to just make random connections either with words or sometimes a sound or song will pop into my head. I suppose I could just call this unorganized thinking or some type of ADD-like symptom as well. Does anyone experience this? When it happens it tends to heighten my DP. Makes me feel as if there is no organized self thinking these thoughts because the thoughts themselves are disorganized.
 
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Yep its just anxiety. Images, words etc, all random thoughts. Like your brain is on speed or something. Nothing to worry about its a normal symptom of anxiety.
 

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I don't think it is anxiety related at all, it's just that the mind is in a constant state of flux and this is normal for everyone. If doing an activity you'll find your mind is always constatantly thinking in the background. Stop and back track on your thoughts and you will see what I mean. Though I do find it strange some of the things the mind picks up. I was playing the guitar the other day and in the back ground I noticed that I was thinking of something that happend when I was a child. During the times when I didn't have this disorder I use to wake up each morning with a song in my head and it related to nothing. It could have been a song I heard like 20+ years ago and for no apparent reason and I'm singing it in the morning.
 

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In the beginning of this disorder I would have a song in my head every morning, and sometimes it would like OCD all day long.. I thought I was hearing things at first, except then I new it was me doing it because where I didn't know the words, the words weren't there, sometimes it would repeat over and over as just one rif of the song.

When I first wake up now , I experience random dreamlike thoughts adn images, like at 1000 miles an hour.... Shrink told me it was anxiety... I always wonder how anxiety makes these things happen..... doesn't make sense to me.. I wish someone could explain that part.

Why does anxiety make random unorganized thought and images fly through your head? No wonder we are all frightened huh?
 

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your brain makes all that crazy stuff to keep you from focusing on particular feelings or thoughts that would cause anxiety. it's like you're anxious over being anxious.
 

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That is how it goes for me. Why am I anxious? Because I don't feel like myself. Why don't I feel like myself? Because I have anxiety. How do I get out of the cycle? I WISH I KNEW!!
 

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My personal experiences are a lot like all of this too - sometimes in the morning my thoughts are somewhat disconnected and, perhaps, a bit "schizo"; by that I mean they are not always linear and logical.

For example, this morning I was halfway between awake and asleep when I started thinking about a particular item I thought I had lost (I can't even remember what it is now), and I remember - relentlessly - trying to not only remember where I had put it, but why I had put it there. Over and over again I raced deep within myself to find an answer, and it absolutely never came to me. After I woke up I remember why it never came to me - and it's because I didn't even own it, however, my mind wasted at least fifteen minutes in my half-dazed state thinking about it.

I don't really get too concerned about these kinds of things, though - as, after I've been awake for a while, they tend to lift - kind of like a fog off a valley or something. My thought is that I simply have a fairly active mind - and active in a lot of areas that are connected with those also active during sleep or a similar kind of trance/hypnotic state.

Our awareness runs deep within us, possibly the result of heavy analysis of our insides, and so it makes sense that if any one of the layers is a bit out of tilt, we experience the effects more.
 

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I sometimes experience a kind of random "stream of conciousness" type thinking where my brain tends to just make random connections either with words or sometimes a sound or song will pop into my head. I suppose I could just call this unorganized thinking or some type of ADD-like symptom as well. Does anyone experience this? When it happens it tends to heighten my DP. Makes me feel as if there is no organized self thinking these thoughts because the thoughts themselves are disorganized.
and things start to get really fast, and all these endless connections and combinations make you tired? and you are just left with a big question? and then you can't even forus on the issue that this procedure (of connections) was ment to solve? and then you feel the void? and it's happening often? and it makes you feel bad the next time you need to think about something, so you can't focus on anything?
 

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Attention Deficit Disorder. I haven't been diagnosed with it but I seem to fit the symptoms. I have an extremely hard time focusing or finishing projects I start (books, school work, etc). Then there is this disorganized and sometimes obsessive thinking that causes me to just kind of zone out. I often miss out on conversations because I'm prone to drifting off. And then the memory goes as well because I'm thinking about so many different things its as if I can't locate certain information I should remember.
 

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I don't think it is anxiety related at all, it's just that the mind is in a constant state of flux and this is normal for everyone. If doing an activity you'll find your mind is always constatantly thinking in the background. Stop and back track on your thoughts and you will see what I mean. Though I do find it strange some of the things the mind picks up. I was playing the guitar the other day and in the back ground I noticed that I was thinking of something that happend when I was a child. During the times when I didn't have this disorder I use to wake up each morning with a song in my head and it related to nothing. It could have been a song I heard like 20+ years ago and for no apparent reason and I'm singing it in the morning.
Yeah, I do this all the time too. But these aren't anxiety thoughts. This isn't worry. There are huge differences in these types of thoughts. It's not really even the thoughts that make anything happen, it's the emotion that come from them.
 

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What I get at times, is I'll be working and I'll get a song stuck in my head, and I'll make a connection with the song to the place i'm at.
Next time I hear that song i feel as if i'm back in that place again.
Maybe it's not the same cause i thought i was the only who did this :)
Like I'll think of an idea for a party, and imagine everyone using it for thier partys and if they like it or not, it gets soooo annoying, it happens like automaticaly, i wish i could figure out the way to just imagine the party, with out the hosts and guests. Just like i cant imagine a girl in a dress with out a hole, or a stain on it or something. Someone said that means i'm a perfectionist. Not sure about that, but I know it has to do with ocd. I used to do that when i was in school, like when i did my homework i was imagining the teacher being silly. I hate those thoughts cause it sounds so dorky ;) I guess it's just called overthinking?
 

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Attention Deficit Disorder. I haven't been diagnosed with it but I seem to fit the symptoms. I have an extremely hard time focusing or finishing projects I start (books, school work, etc). Then there is this disorganized and sometimes obsessive thinking that causes me to just kind of zone out. I often miss out on conversations because I'm prone to drifting off. And then the memory goes as well because I'm thinking about so many different things its as if I can't locate certain information I should remember.
My motivation is dead. I still think that it's my damn personality that causes this. I am fighting between the acceptance of a potential deficit and a banch or personality falws... The necessity of something that I must do should determine my desire of doing it, and not my desire determine if I want to do it. That is my goal.

It is far beyond easiness to say "I have ADD or something else", but I like to challenge the very essence of psychology, believing that, in fact, (forgive me for this) psychology could be just an easy way of telling the hard truth (I could explain this better if it is necessary).

Still, I must not make a mistake, and while I could correct things if I have accepted the existance of ADD, I didn't because of beeing stuborn.

I have motivation problems with school. And I get to study an enormous amount of material over the Internet of things that I like (politics, art, history, global news) which are in English (and I have only basic knowledge of, and I know almost no terminology), and I can't get myself study the bloody book that is in my native language.

I am almost sure that if those school books werent necessary to read, I would read them.

A practical example:

I am an amateur web-designer. I design websites for fun. A friend wanted a website, so he asked me to make it. I asked him a symbolic price for the time it will take me to create it. Once I understood that "now, I must create it within 2 weeks", I wasn't able to put my creativity to work (I had the liberty to design it they way I thought more suitable). Yet, at the time he told me "I am thinking of a website...", I was nothing but full of ideas. And after I finished it, and had practially no reason of continuing to deal with it, I created (just for fun) 3 alternative versions better that the original.

Why? When I like doing something, I do it nicely. When I MUST do the same thing, I stink.

And please, if anyone knows this, tell me.

Ben,
My pen name is "brainsilence" but it refers to the things that gave me pleasure from the world. I dont know anymore.
 

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Why? When I like doing something, I do it nicely. When I MUST do the same thing, I stink.
There could be a lot of reasons, honestly - perfectionism and musterbation (the act of MUST'ing everything - I MUST do well or ELSE I'm a loser) could be another. Either one of these are complex issues and difficult to unfold.

Try looking deeply into your feelings at the time and see what went haywire.
 

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Why? When I like doing something, I do it nicely. When I MUST do the same thing, I stink.
There could be a lot of reasons, honestly - perfectionism and musterbation (the act of MUST'ing everything - I MUST do well or ELSE I'm a loser) could be another. Either one of these are complex issues and difficult to unfold.

Try looking deeply into your feelings at the time and see what went haywire.
 
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