Ok So I posted here a couple of weeks ago saying how much better I was doing. Well I think it has been a month since I found this site. And in my reading and evaluating my actions and trying to understand this better I believe I have "fixed" myself so to speak. I havent had one DR day since! I dont wanna toot my own horn or jinx myself though I am still going one day at a time. Though no DR I still have had my days where anxiety is taking control... not totally like before, but bad days I guess. The things is before I thought maybe I really truely was crazy... mostly cuz of my DR and the way it made me think. Well no DR and I still find myself wondering if I truely am nuts? Is that crazy? Am I crazy to think that? What is going on here?
I saw another post talking about fear of hurting someone even though they dont want to. I have that fear too. Like that I will hurt my kids or something... one day I will just snap... but I DONT want to. I just fear it for no reason. Someone suggested OCD. Well I'd say most of my daily life is not OCD. Alot of things I do would show that. But there are certain things that could make you think otherwise. So is my fear or thinking that maybe I am nuts... stilll possibly an OCD thing? Or have I just been thinking this way so much for the past year that I my mind set is as such? Like I need to recondition myself to think differently?? I dunno I am just confused. I always felt this way, or so I thought, cuz of my DR but now I do and I am not DR?? Well so far...
Anyone any thoughts?
I do have some cool pics I drew at home though... hmmm never thought of that. I should get one of those 8)
