it's an obsession...a trick of your brain to lure you in to monitoring yourself. your brain is presenting you with something so BAD that you feel you HAVE to watch the thought or watch yourself to suppress it/prevent it from happening. but truth is, it's just a thought. i think because you have become so skilled at getting rid of your anxiety and DR that your brain is trying to grapple for something to lure you back into some kind of self-control/self-observation. its been a while since i've had one of these thoughts but i just kind of imagine it dissolving in my mind like a sugar cube in warm water. the thought itself is not the problem, it's the importance you give it.
Strange Question
Ok So I posted here a couple of weeks ago saying how much better I was doing. Well I think it has been a month since I found this site. And in my reading and evaluating my actions and trying to understand this better I believe I have "fixed" myself so to speak. I havent had one DR day since! I dont wanna toot my own horn or jinx myself though I am still going one day at a time. Though no DR I still have had my days where anxiety is taking control... not totally like before, but bad days I guess. The things is before I thought maybe I really truely was crazy... mostly cuz of my DR and the way it made me think. Well no DR and I still find myself wondering if I truely am nuts? Is that crazy? Am I crazy to think that? What is going on here?
I saw another post talking about fear of hurting someone even though they dont want to. I have that fear too. Like that I will hurt my kids or something... one day I will just snap... but I DONT want to. I just fear it for no reason. Someone suggested OCD. Well I'd say most of my daily life is not OCD. Alot of things I do would show that. But there are certain things that could make you think otherwise. So is my fear or thinking that maybe I am nuts... stilll possibly an OCD thing? Or have I just been thinking this way so much for the past year that I my mind set is as such? Like I need to recondition myself to think differently?? I dunno I am just confused. I always felt this way, or so I thought, cuz of my DR but now I do and I am not DR?? Well so far...
Anyone any thoughts?
I saw another post talking about fear of hurting someone even though they dont want to. I have that fear too. Like that I will hurt my kids or something... one day I will just snap... but I DONT want to. I just fear it for no reason. Someone suggested OCD. Well I'd say most of my daily life is not OCD. Alot of things I do would show that. But there are certain things that could make you think otherwise. So is my fear or thinking that maybe I am nuts... stilll possibly an OCD thing? Or have I just been thinking this way so much for the past year that I my mind set is as such? Like I need to recondition myself to think differently?? I dunno I am just confused. I always felt this way, or so I thought, cuz of my DR but now I do and I am not DR?? Well so far...
Anyone any thoughts?
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oh my GOD...man you can print this out if you want to...to show to your doc
honey.
i have been diagnosed with ADD. I have tried three things: Ritalin (which is methylphenidate similar to Concerta), Strattera, and Adderall.
Ritalin made me very paranoid, and a weird emotional rollercoaster
strattera I couldn't stay on for more than one day.
Adderall has been very helpful. Not a fun drug to take IMO...i don't really like having to take it...but it helps a lot.
but yeah, definitely try the yoga and such. and then maybe ask to try a different med if you still need to. but god damn if your doc didn't put you on the two worst medications in the world for anxiety!
honey.
i have been diagnosed with ADD. I have tried three things: Ritalin (which is methylphenidate similar to Concerta), Strattera, and Adderall.
Ritalin made me very paranoid, and a weird emotional rollercoaster
strattera I couldn't stay on for more than one day.
Adderall has been very helpful. Not a fun drug to take IMO...i don't really like having to take it...but it helps a lot.
but yeah, definitely try the yoga and such. and then maybe ask to try a different med if you still need to. but god damn if your doc didn't put you on the two worst medications in the world for anxiety!
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