[Mipmunk]

I am getting better each day, but god isn't it slow, so slow. I feel a bit more connected each day, I still have a bit of anxiety and clammy hands, but I can feel it going.

The question of my identity and who I am still bothers me, so hence I know the DP hasn't quite gone yet. I am sleeping but I wake up earlier than usual.

It is nearly 15 weeks that I have been DP'd. I just long for the end of the day (to leave work), because I know once I get home I feel even more better and it is the end of another day that I have struggled through.

Make sense?

Mip
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[person3]

sounds good to me.

glad you're getting better!

 

[Mipmunk]

Well I feel a little like me. I don't feel completely connected to my sense of self, I don't think I have my whole identity back yet. I am managing to keep the anxiety down to a low level, clammy hands today is the worst I have had. I can feel me coming back, but god it is so slow. I know there is a better "more connected" me than this. It isn't time yet to jump up and down and shout hallelujah, but I am hoping that day isn't far away.

The next thing is to deal with how to stop going into DP which has always for me been caused by overwhelming anxiety/indecision and trauma.

That will be the next big step (I am having CBT with a therapist), but at the moment I just need to get back to being me.

Doesn't every day seem long when your sense of self and identity isn't there..... I can't wait for bed time every night, so I know I have managed to struggle through another day.

I hate this DP, it sucks, it ruins your life. I actually think mental illness is worse than physical illness.....personally speaking.

Mippy
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[Guest]

I don't know I use't to hate DP, but you got to respect the beast..
instead of a dull reflection of reality, I've seen the through the mirror..
Life is an objective entity, reality is only our persception of life..
There is more than one persception of life.