[JFarm]

Just got confirmation on diagnosis and after it was explained to me a lot of my breaks in my life now make sense to me I don't feel any better about it but at least i now understand that Trauma can run extremely deep and it had a much more profound effect on my life than what i really thought. i now know that the numbness i have felt to the outside world has served a purpose at one time but it should no longer be there. i want so badly to participate in the world around me not just watch it through my foggy window but i know it will be a long and scary journey just to break the glass.