Hi,
I will post here the account of my pains/sensations from a year ago, almost to a day. (I wrote it for someone in PM, and you reminded me of it now).
I only rarely experience some of it now, but back then, the pains, tension, and shaking/buzzing were almost a constant. Also, most nights I would wake up in pain, and that lasted for years, but 2019 and 2020 were particularly bad. Pains were worsening with anxiety and stress, as well as with season, as months from November to March were very triggering for me. What I describe here is somatization in someone without resolved trauma, in constant state of fight/flight/freeze/collapse, and also deeply dissociated/depersonalized. All the sensations, pains included, were somehow indirect, as everything else about me at that time. It was as if someone else sat and wrote me an e-mail in order to describe it, and then I would "read it" and feel them. It was pretty bad.
"...basically my somatization comes from involuntary tension in my muscles, that worsens with anxiety. I literally cannot relax my muscles most of the time, and in the worst case this can bring really bad pain, that resembles continuous cramps, and just pins and needles when it is not that serious.
Sometimes it can be like my abdomen and back are made of stone, that much they are tense, but not because I work out, lol, but because they are in involuntary spasm. My legs too.
The worst pains tend to be pelvic and hip, and then my back, rib cage and legs. I also have two different types of headaches, one located at the right part of my head, and the other one that starts at the very low end of my spine, past my hips, goes up my spine as a light current, passes neck and jaw and goes through the root of my nose, past my eyebrows and distributed over my forehead. It goes with tingling, like electricity, especially along the spine, and in the root of my nose. It has also something to do with tics - blinking with one eye, and nose twitching. I do not have tics all the time, just once in a while, when my anxiety worsens.
Sometimes I notice vibrations out of the blue, while sitting with my laptop or walking, and these are not painful or unpleasant, just strange, like I am plugged to a cell phone vibration.
I think that all these manifestations, such as that vibrating feeling, have to do with micro spasms and then muscle relaxation. However, I distinguish it from kind of feeling my own blood stream pulsation, as I think this is due to my attentiveness to otherwise normal bodily functions, like I notice things that would go under the radar of a normal conscious mind.
This over-sensitivity can manifest not only in being overly aware of my body, but also of stimuli such as light, sound or smell."