I was surpised at how common this is in the community and feel a bit better. I still think its a strange habit and am often bothered by it when I catch myself doing it. For some reason I think it contributes to my obsessive thoughts, or maybe its just me scanning myself and being sensitive now that I consider myself a DP person. Anyway, thanks for the replies.
speaking to myself - is this unhealthy?
I've had what I belive was referred to in another thread as "broken record thinking" in that I tend to rehearse conversations with myself that may or may not occur in the future. I have been doing this a very long time and it was associated with my inner fantasy life that I would often escape to, but is more often simply a method of organizing streams of thoughts that tend to get out of hand. I NEVER speak to myself aloud, whether im in public or not. This is all in my head. It worries me because it has become such a fluid thing. I'll simply slip into a conversation as both the person who is speaking and the person who is being spoken to, but will normally only act my part. My problem is I can be going somewhere having these streams of thoughts, inner conversations and monlogues and then not remember my trip or car ride. My head tends to get so wrapped up in things that I cant focus on the here and now. Sorry for the long post, I just hope that I'm not suffering from some kind of delusional thinking. Thanks for any replies.
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All too familiar. Except I dont berate myself out loud just in my head. I've felt better the past 3 days and have noticed the inner conversations have tapered off a bit. There is an element of control here I think. The question is whether or not this behavior contributed to obsessive thinking or DP states. I no longer think its delusional but recognize I'm better off and more focused without it. Nothing to be scared of anymore though. Try to calm the little man in your head and I think you'll start to feel better.
I agree the worst part of this is the point when you realize your acting out fictional situations that will never happen. The worst times are when I stop the inner conversation and just ask myself "Why am I talking to myself? No ones here or will ever be here" At those times of realization I tend to think I'm crazy or somethings wrong. I try not to berate myself as much anymore though, its just an odd habit.
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