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speaking to myself - is this unhealthy?

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I've had what I belive was referred to in another thread as "broken record thinking" in that I tend to rehearse conversations with myself that may or may not occur in the future. I have been doing this a very long time and it was associated with my inner fantasy life that I would often escape to, but is more often simply a method of organizing streams of thoughts that tend to get out of hand. I NEVER speak to myself aloud, whether im in public or not. This is all in my head. It worries me because it has become such a fluid thing. I'll simply slip into a conversation as both the person who is speaking and the person who is being spoken to, but will normally only act my part. My problem is I can be going somewhere having these streams of thoughts, inner conversations and monlogues and then not remember my trip or car ride. My head tends to get so wrapped up in things that I cant focus on the here and now. Sorry for the long post, I just hope that I'm not suffering from some kind of delusional thinking. Thanks for any replies.
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I've got really bad with this lately - some embarrassing memory will crop up and I'll feel compelled to blot it out by saying a word or phrase, or even singing some weird, manic surreal little song!
I went through a very tourettes-ey time where the word my subconscious chose for the blotting out was 'the "N" word', and I'd just blurt it out, regardless of where I was. That led to some difficult situations when I lived closer to London... It's more tune-based these days, thank god.

As for the general internal dialogue thing, I do this excessively and consider it to be a very negative thing, and fundamental to my DP. I don't seem to be able to have a thought that isn't language-based; it's just words, words, words - in the booming voice of my internal narrator.
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