[kchendrix]

One thing I have observed is that when I started reconnecting to myself My Anxiety increases, Like if I start enjoying myself and laughing , I all of the sudden start to wonder, am I laughing too much, am I going too far ,, will I suddenly crack... And then I draw myself back in my hole. Funny when you start feeling "NORMAL" you get scared..... I think that says something to me ..... Like maybe as scarry as DP or DR is . maybe there is something I am even more frightened of that keeps me retreating from the connection.

Hmmmmmm?

 

[Guest]

dont be afraid. its a great to laugh. engage yourself in the drama of your life!

 

[livinginhell333]

thats what i think i still have dp. i'm afraid of being normal. and afraid of being scared again that i feel nothing. but i want to feel alive.

 

[shadowness]

i can certainly relate to this...

when i start just doing things i freak out as i realize that it is ME who is doing those things and ME that is saying those things and then i wonder why and how i did!

it is just all the self observation thing....just so hard to stop...