[yuri]

I think the way to recovery from DpDr is a personal one, but you can get guidance from other peoples journeys. One size doesnt fit all tho and I know that can be a sensitive topic talking about a cure or a way out.
Here goes.

I believe that my self hatred is a big contributor why I DpDr.
If you are full of self hatred you need to remember that you liked yourself. The keyword here is remember. You dont learn to like yourself, you remember that once before all the things happened that made you hate yourself you liked yourself. For me it was before the bullying started in second grade. My home wasn't a very safe home but I cooped. When school started to reflected the low worth I felt in my deteriorating family. There it started. So I looked on a photo from my first day at school and I felt for him. That little boy. Having to suffer the way he did. And adulthood with psychic problems. I wished him a better life. I wanted to build a better life for him, give him what he needed. It is a processes, I don't know when that seed started to grow or how long before it bloomed. The further I travel the more I realise that the anxiety I hate and try banish is my own pain and the more I realized how bad I have treated myself. Like I said, it is a personal journey, you cant read a guide to get out. You remember that you liked yourself, you dont need to relearn something you already know. I havent find a therapy or book that could teach me to like myself, but remembering I did on my own without any help. If you suffer from selfhatred and where old enough before the world chewed you up to have a chance to remember that you liked yourself I hope you can find it like I have. I still have selfhatred but some days I like myself and that was a looooong time ago that happened. Cheers and good luck my brothers and sisters

 

[yuri]

I see know that I have talked about this in another thread. So I have worked in this direction for quite some time. Maybe its something that takes a lifetime. To fully accept and love yourself.

 

[yuri]

Facing what you did to others is as important as accepting the bad things people did to you. i have read so little about this but for me it is vital. Becouse when you act far outside of your inner, individual, moral compas. That is a trauma as well. And it ccan lead to you becoming a person you hate becouse you never heal the rip you made in your person. And I belive if you can face it without all the stories your brain worked out to excusue you from your bad behaivour. Some of those stories are true, others false. It doesnt mather you should look at the event as is. Becouse that is what you are capable of under right surcumstanses, becouse that is a warning that you can do it again. But feeling the shame sets it free. But maybe not the first day. And it hurts. A lot. But after some time if you dont push it will become more acceptable and you can see more clearly what scared you with your behaviur, I dont think this work should be done before you feel some love foor yourself. If you do this and you dont treet yourself nice and listen and just push it like a madman. You can become really sick, for a long time. I learned that the hard way when i try to force why I was so scared to get jumped on the street. It to my work back maybe a year and I felt trully horible at times,

 

[yuri]

I belive this helps me. But only used it for a couple of weeks and I get a short placebo from most therapies and medicine. But I feel more flexible in my thought, and I had a lot of things done. If you try, give it at least a week once a day. It didnt kick in right away. Small changes. Feeling a little more awake at times.

There are more videos on his channel for variation and hallange.

 

[yuri]

I will be back with new discoveries in a new thread when the time is right.

 

[Georgewright6]

Really like your posts mate, in too have experienced bullying and have been the bully too when i was much younger in school which i am ashamed off, i’m recovering from dpdr 2nd time again along with anxiety and since the anxiety came back with it i have been very reflectful on traumas etc so this was a really good post for me
today as i really felt it so thank you, and all the best with your own recovery xx