[shadowness]

my dr and dp have been going through the roof recently and am really scared out of my mind!

i am so scared and depressed right now!

i have no idea what to do and when i am at work it is unbareable trying to function 'normally'...it is hard to function 'normally' at home too...

for the first time in about a year i am having panic attacks when travelling especially...

i travelled 40 minutes in a car today and felt i was about to explode...

i really do feel like i am forgetting the world around me...it is so unfamiliar and even friends and family are beginning to look REALLY unfamiliar!

i hate it! i cannot stand it!

i remember what it is like to feel normal...

i remember how i used to be and how i used to think and feel about things...

now i just have no idea what to do with myself...

please...

if anyone can comment please do...

i am trying to help myself but i cannot exercise at the moment because of my arm and back...i am eating and drinking healthily...

i cannot take meds as i have to wait for my arm to heal (from an operation)...

i cannot stand going through the day frequently choking from feeling so detached from everything...

sorry and thanks for reading.

 

[Monkeydust]

Right now you're probably feeling the worst, or nearly the worst you're ever likely to feel in your life. I can relate, as I've "been there" myself recently.

It's not nice, not nice at all, and I'm sure words alone aren't going to change how you feel right now. But just remember, this is pretty much the worst it is gonna get, and if you can bear this, you can bear almost anything. You will get through it, believe me. It won't be easy, but you will.

I can relate to the feelings of not knowing what to do all the time, you probably feel that, if you were feeling "yourself", you'd be able to think of stuff to do that you'd enjoy no problem.

As it stands, you're going to have to force yourself to be occupied with something, anything you want. Read a book, go chat with a friend if one's around, write something...whatever comes to your mind. It will probably feel "fake", it won't feel like it's really you doing it, but it will help. It's gonna take a lot of willpower, however.

I really hope you're feeling better soon, it's not going to be easy, these next few days. Just try to distract yourself somehow, that's all I know that will make it easier.

 

[bat]

i think you need to try and calm your mind. if you can take herbal remedies 'calms' from the chemist might help a little (made from valerian, gentian and hops). other than that try to relax/de-stress your body as it might help calm your mind. massage or reflexology might help, chamomile tea, a salt bath, lots of water
this state won't last very long at some point you will start to level and then anxiety/dr will start to ease

 

[livinginhell333]

is not feeling your body part of dp? it feels like my hands aren't mine, my face isn't mine, when a relative kisses me i don't feel it. i hate that feeling. i kno they love me and i love my family, but its like i don't feel love. the only thing i feel is frustration and sadness that i'm feeling like this. it feels like the devil is in my body, but i think i will be better in the end. i guess what doesn't kill us makes us stronger, and i am not gonna let this kill me. i hope the ap's that i am taking are making it worse.

 

[shadowness]

thanks guys...

i just cannot stand this...

i get these sudden waves of panic, my head oges odd, my skin starts burning and i feel like i am just floating...i feel like i am nothing...

i have dp/dr all day everyday...

i just want one 5 minute break at least! just one minute even!

i have been trying herbal remedies and nothing seems to calm me so far...

i just feel so lost and sick...

i cannot even cry even though i feel so damn miserable!

and yet i still joke and can still act 'normal'...

i cannot keep doing this...i am trying so damn hard but the dp/dr has not even lifted slightly!

so sorry to rant...just so frustrated and so very damn scared!!!

 

[enigma]

so sorry to rant

We all need to sometimes. And we should all feel free too here (it's good to vent).

Wishing you happier times ahead,

e

"We all go a little crazy sometimes. Don't you?"--Norman Bates

 

[enigma]

"We all go a little crazy sometimes. Don't you?"--Norman Bates

Actually that's "We all go a little mad sometimes." (Du-oh! I never misquote Alfred Hitchcock films! Tells you what kind of weekend I'm having!).

 

[Guest]

right now your body and mind has just said, i have had enough and it makes you feel completely miserable, its just a natural phase. Your feeling real down but eventually youll climb back up there, just hang in there!

 

[Guest]

you should write C. It seems the more code i write, the more normal i feel. Its like mental exaustion causes the creation of a kinda psychological "best path," which when you're really tired.. is the easiest path; which is also the most obvious, which in turn is the most "real". Its like mental darwninsm kinda (for lack of a better term). Its been working really well for me. The only times i get DP at all currently is when im talking to other people, but im surrounded with nerds anyway so i just talk to them about similar things. Perhaps you should find a nerd hobby to keep your mind off your mind.

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