[livinginhell333]

i really am so numb right now, my body, its actually been numb for a while. i can't feel the ground under me, if i bang into something i don't feel it, it feels like my body isn't mine, i recently took myself off abilify, but i'm not feeling any better any suggestions? also, she wanted to keep me on the medicine, my p doc. also another thing is i'm like never happy anymore, people i used to like don't make me happy, i don't really enjoy sports anymore, food doesn't taste good and music doesn't make me feel good anymore, i hate this. i feel hopeless. i really just want to feel my body again. i don't know what to do anymore, i think i might need an antidepressant of some sort. any suggestions on what works better than others. i really want to get better, but its hard. also feels like my mind is gone its vanished, i'm always staring out into space not thinking about anything or thinking about how i used to be before this happened and then i think i'll never get back to that stage of how i used to be. its horrible. i really don't know what to do anymore. sorry for the rant, thanks for listening though.

 

[Guest]

Fake it til you make it. Do you excercise or have a proper diet? Do you have a stable situation at home?

Stay off all meds for a while to see if you can get better without them. Meds create all sorts of new side effects and sensations that you may confuse with DP, so it's best to see if your brain can do it on it's own for a while. Sorry you feel bad. It's only temporary. 98% of people go on to feel better. It just takes a while for your brain to form it's own coping/healing mechanisms. The brain is smart and will eventually find it's way home if you feed it the right information. Feel better mate. Take care

 

[sleepingbeauty]

what was your abilify dosage? im on 7.5 right now. i used to be on 15 but it made me feel my body TOO MUCH i had major physical anxiety and couldnt stop moving my limbs it was pretty scary. :?

 

[livinginhell333]

i was only taking 2.5 mgs of abilify. started with 7.5. and pure narcotic i think your right about letting the brain heal itself, but patience is hard for me, and i mite try an antidepressant because i'm not seeing any improvement and its hard to fake it when you know you want to be normal and your not like the rest of the people around you. i do exercise sometimes, doesn't help much. family is ok, but they don't understand, but obviously want me to get better. i hate this non sense of taste/smell pleasure pain. emotional and physically both hard to deal with and extremely numbing. anyone else going through the same thing i'm going through, and how to you guys cope with this demon?

 

[livinginhell333]

i also don't want to go to the hospital again and have another psychotic episode and have everyone looking at me crazy, that was horrible, never want to experience that again, thats why i'm kinda scared of getting off the medicine, but i don't think that will happen, if i have another panic attack i'll take a xanax or something. so lost

 

[Guest]

living hell it sounds like you are having a hard time. You are not alone. I am new to this problem it all started in december for me and I am very slowly getting better with only 3 or 4 setbacks :lol:

 

[livinginhell333]

yes a very hard time, i just want to feel something. feel music again. how would i do that? would an antidepressant help with my feelings or should i just give it time. i want my love for music and love for sports back at least one of those and i'll be happy. i just want to feel the music in my soul again. i feel like my soul is lost.

 

[Guest]

Your brain is trying to catch up. It's the combination of you recovering from the tramau of the hospital plus your brain is probably re adjusting after being exposed to abilify. Your brain is probably too busy trying to re adjust and it is blocking out all other things such as joy, happiness, ambition. It takes time to recover from tramau, but that time will heal all wounds and you'll come out of this fine. Just try and be as patient as you can. The brain has an amazing ability to heal itself.

 

[livinginhell333]

also, my body feels light, like it weighs 20 pounds or so less. maybe the weight of a stick. i kinda feel like a ghost, anyone else feel like this. like their body is really light? it sux. i feel like my feet aren't touching the ground my hands aren't really picking up things. pretty much on autopilot.

 

[livinginhell333]

man if i had known weed could do this to you i wouldn't have done it. i should have listened in 5th grade. i was always against doing drugs and i thought weed wasn't gonna hurt me. the first 3 times i did i was like hey i'm fine its not that bad, but i was wrong. should have never touched that stuff. nothing i can do now to change it i guess, just that i wish i was never exposed to it and the pressures of doing it. i actually decided to smoke, i was always a good kid till i decided to try it last summer. stupid me. i shouldn't beat myself up over it, but i am and i know its over now and there's nothing i can do to change time, but i wish there was....o well.

 

[livinginhell333]

i also take some natural stuff for depression like sam-e and fish oil and l-tyrosine and stuff for memory, but it doesn't seem to help much. could they be making me feel worse? maybe i should stop taking them. i don't know anymore. i figured they could help me, but i'm not noticing a difference.