...I didn't know what to say. I didn't know what was "normal."
So I told her, "Sort of."
Then she asked me if THEY talk to ME, and I didn't know what to say.
Then she asked me if I talk to THEM, and I didn't know what to say.
Then she asked me if THEY talked to EACH OTHER, and I giggled out loud. Although I think I did more cause it made me nervous. I don't know what's "normal" voices. I mean, I get spontaneous images in my mind sometimes that are so vivid that they distract me from what I'm doing. The images are nothing I've ever seen, but places or people that I don't know. As for actual voices, I certainly don't feel alone in my head, but...oh I don't know. Just this past weekend, I was laying down with my boyfriend. He was asleep, and I was just awake but with my eyes closed, resting. Suddenly I got an image of a girl and was telling me "Why don't you go to the other side?" It wasn't my voice, it just happened...out of nowhere.
How do I know if I should mention them to my psych, and how? How do I know it's not just my imagination.
It took me until i was sixteen years old to realize i've been hearing voices all my life . They started when i was about 3 or 4. I would often have images/visions in my head along with them, of strange people and places and things i can't even describe. I think i thought it was pretty normal my whole life, because it's been going on since i was so young. Or at least, i didn't think i was "hearing Voices" because they weren't external, as if someone was in the room with me. They sounded more like they were coming from speakers inside my ears.
Whenever psychiatrists had asked me in the past "do you hear voices or see things" I would always say no.
So...i went years, thinking i was "normal", and always being amazed when hearing stories of my grandmother and aunt who were schizophrenic. I would think to myself "How aweful that they had to go through that" not even knowing that i was experiencing it myself. Again, i always thought that to be concidered "hearing voices", they had to be completly external. I was wrong...voices can come in many forms.
Anyways, what made me realize i was hallucinating, was durring my first trip to the psych ward (I was suicidal and cutting myself..that's why i was there) After talking to other kids in the hospital who had hallucinations, i slowly began to realize i was too...and that they were getting worse.
Most of the voices i hear these days are inside my head, like the way i hear my own thoughts, only they are not my thoughts. I can't predict them or control them. Most of the time, it is a bunch of backround noise--like 10 or 20 voices talking at once. voices of men and women. And usually i can't really make sense of what they are saying. But sometimes one or two or three voices will come out and talk about me or tell me to do things. Sometimes i hear them screaming or laughing, or singing.
The other week, i heard some girl telling me her name was "katie or Katrina" ...guess she couldn't make up her mind.
It's strange, because when i am having episodes of hearing these voices in my head, i get this strange sick feeling. It's hard to describe, but it's kind've like nausea.
Also, when i pass by people on the street or when im driving, they put their evil thoughts into my head--telling me i'm powerless and they are going to get me, or "ha ha ha, sucker!: stuff like that...so it's like i have telepathy (actually, i think i do) and sometimes i can feel people pulling my thoughts away from me.
This feeling of not being alone in your head...have you always had that feeling, or is it something new? Everyone has their own inner dialogue and it;s normal for people to play out conversations and arguements with other people in their head. The difference between this and voice hearing, is you have control over these "voices of other people" you make them say what you want them to say, so it's just part of your own thoughts.
I think you should mention all this to your psych. Also, the voices and visions you get when your eyes are closed and you are resting... I have the same kind of things. The voices and images i hear get much louder and more clear when i am closing my eyes, resting or about to fall asleep. i've heard that this can be somewhat normal, then again, i've heard that it's not. So i don't know. It;'s really confusing me!
well, good luck..sorry this reply was so long. I hope i didn't cause more confusion.