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Hey Everyone,
I thought I would start a post on the topic of Modafinil since I will be filling my prescription either today or tomorrow. I am hopeful that Modafinil might help somewhat, but if it doesn't, no big deal, at least I tried it out.
If anyone has any experience or opinions on Modafinil, please feel free to post! I would love to get the groups opinion on this medication.
***Trigger Warning - Describing how I got DPDR***
A little background on my situation and how I came to be in this state of being.
I have DPDR that is mostly brain fog and haziness other than the constant anxiety and panic that others face. I used to have the anxiety and panic attacks years ago, which initially started me on my journey with DPDR. I first got DPDR from abusing drugs and alcohol, waking up one morning and dealing with the strangest, most terrible feeling of dying I have ever felt. From there I ended up in and out of emergency every other day, thinking I was losing my mind, thinking I was dying, thinking I was having a heart attack, thinking I had schizophrenia. I was eventually prescribed SSRI and Benzos to treat my "Anxiety and Depression" that I "had". *Disclaimer* Now the next part is just my own personal experience with medications, it does not mean you will have anything near similar to what I did. The drugs eventually started to work and numbed me to the point where I just didnt give a shit about anything and nothing phased me in the slightest. I got fat, I got lazy, I started to drink and use drugs more and more to feel things, to feel anything. This went on for 4 years until I finally had the strength to change my life and do my own type of recovery. I slowly, with my Doctors knowledge, weened myself off of all the medications I was on, I eventually quit drinking and using street drugs, I eventually quit smoking ciggs, I started to change my eating habits, I changed my sleeping routine, I started to exercise. Now I am 2 years clean and sober, off of all meds and substances, and living a very healthy life. I feel the best I have felt in years. No more anxiety, no more panic, no more fear, BUT, and there is a big BUT, (and I cannot lie), I still have terrible Depersonalization, not feeling real, not feeling like I am experiencing my own life, not feeling totally aware of my life, horrible "Brain Fog", and still feeling numb and detached, terrible short term and working memory, ect ect. Ugh. So now I am at the point where I am physically healthy but I feel mentally exhausted and sick. I am hoping the Modafinil may help me in some of these regards, but if it doesnt, I wont give up, and I will keep on fighting the good fight to get my life feeling robust and whole again.
Anyways, thanks for reading and I hope this post is of some interest or benefit to anyone,
I will definitely update after I try Modafinil for a few days and record my results.
Cheers
I thought I would start a post on the topic of Modafinil since I will be filling my prescription either today or tomorrow. I am hopeful that Modafinil might help somewhat, but if it doesn't, no big deal, at least I tried it out.
If anyone has any experience or opinions on Modafinil, please feel free to post! I would love to get the groups opinion on this medication.
***Trigger Warning - Describing how I got DPDR***
A little background on my situation and how I came to be in this state of being.
I have DPDR that is mostly brain fog and haziness other than the constant anxiety and panic that others face. I used to have the anxiety and panic attacks years ago, which initially started me on my journey with DPDR. I first got DPDR from abusing drugs and alcohol, waking up one morning and dealing with the strangest, most terrible feeling of dying I have ever felt. From there I ended up in and out of emergency every other day, thinking I was losing my mind, thinking I was dying, thinking I was having a heart attack, thinking I had schizophrenia. I was eventually prescribed SSRI and Benzos to treat my "Anxiety and Depression" that I "had". *Disclaimer* Now the next part is just my own personal experience with medications, it does not mean you will have anything near similar to what I did. The drugs eventually started to work and numbed me to the point where I just didnt give a shit about anything and nothing phased me in the slightest. I got fat, I got lazy, I started to drink and use drugs more and more to feel things, to feel anything. This went on for 4 years until I finally had the strength to change my life and do my own type of recovery. I slowly, with my Doctors knowledge, weened myself off of all the medications I was on, I eventually quit drinking and using street drugs, I eventually quit smoking ciggs, I started to change my eating habits, I changed my sleeping routine, I started to exercise. Now I am 2 years clean and sober, off of all meds and substances, and living a very healthy life. I feel the best I have felt in years. No more anxiety, no more panic, no more fear, BUT, and there is a big BUT, (and I cannot lie), I still have terrible Depersonalization, not feeling real, not feeling like I am experiencing my own life, not feeling totally aware of my life, horrible "Brain Fog", and still feeling numb and detached, terrible short term and working memory, ect ect. Ugh. So now I am at the point where I am physically healthy but I feel mentally exhausted and sick. I am hoping the Modafinil may help me in some of these regards, but if it doesnt, I wont give up, and I will keep on fighting the good fight to get my life feeling robust and whole again.
Anyways, thanks for reading and I hope this post is of some interest or benefit to anyone,
I will definitely update after I try Modafinil for a few days and record my results.
Cheers