so for the past 2 weeks has been really good and terrible at the same time. i have felt almost 95% and have really good days and than some days are just terrible where i’m just numb emotionally and just do stuff with no emotions. today i woke up and i felt the best i have ever felt and than later in the day i’m having a panic attack but i’ve gotten really good at controlling panic attack because i just sit and breathe and it helps a lot. i have this weird thing when i’m not thinking about derealization and i look back at not thinking about it, it seems really weird and it’s accompanied with like my whole stomach dropping. i feel like this is hindering my recovery and just wondering how can i get past this, it just seems so weird to not even think about it.