one of the worst things for me is trying to fall asleep. I cant do it. i'll get to the point where I can feel myself drifting off and I snap myself awake because I become too aware of the fact that Im actively trying to sleep. once I actually fall asleep, i'm good, but it takes me forever. the only thing that helps is if I drink, because at least then I can just knock myself out. but i'm trying to stay sober lately, I feel like alcohol is definitely making all of this worse.