I didnt expect the full blast of stress i experianced since stopped it. We just moved here in our new house in a different state less than a week ago by car which was a two day trip. I lived in the other state for more than ten years. This experiment made me realize my meds were keeping alot of the stress at bay. I didnt take my antidepressant for three days and they were keeping my depression and dp more at bay and reduced alot of the bad (and some good) thoughts and heavy emotions. For instance today was the third day and ive never been so angry and irritable at such simple things in my life. Alot of things i was doing today seemed very uncharacteristic of me and felt as if something else were controlling my emotions. I even started yelling outside by myself about shit even though it wasnt even a big deal. Im definently feeling dped again cause i feel as if im not fully controlling my actions and feel as if the things im doing are just for the sake of doing rather than feeling much emotions towards anything (besides random, irrational anger). My existential thoughts and negative additude towards existence is back. (I take cymbalta, 30mg, for anyone wondering. Might not work as well for anyone else since everyones different but its worth a try). I know moving brings its own stress. While in the process of moving which took over a year and while settling in right now, i have felt as though this is all some dream or illusion and didnt take it seriously and have been focused on how fucked up i feel internally. I just started taking my med again tonight though. I hate the fact i cant just get through this without medication but at least something helps i guess.