Eh, if you haven't questioned everything in the universe -- including your sexuality -- then you're just not doing DP right! Seriously though, lots of people here have questioned their existence, their reality, their personality and of course their sexuality. Questioning everything and fearing everything is sorta a big part of DP. In "Feeling Unreal" Simeon says there's a lot of evidence that points towards DP being tied into fear of rejection and I couldn't agree more. I know for me I have tons of shame and fear of rejection that date back to childhood and not being accepted by my father. I went through a stage in high school when my DP was pretty bad where I was constantly questioning my sexuality and losing my mind over whether I was gay or not -- even though I had absolutely no attraction to men.
So what you got off on something unconventional? Welcome to the realm of sexuality. It's all on a spectrum and nobody is really in the middle as much as society likes you to believe. The more you stress about it, think about it and reject yourself for it the worse it will bother you. Instead try and embrace it, be proud of it, welcome it. These are the things that make you human and considering DP makes you feel so much like a robot you should love all that weird stuff even more!
So what you got off on something unconventional? Welcome to the realm of sexuality. It's all on a spectrum and nobody is really in the middle as much as society likes you to believe. The more you stress about it, think about it and reject yourself for it the worse it will bother you. Instead try and embrace it, be proud of it, welcome it. These are the things that make you human and considering DP makes you feel so much like a robot you should love all that weird stuff even more!
