I feel the same. I get so low it's frightening, but whenever I start to plan suicide I always think about my mum and it stops me from doing it. I'm only alive for my family. I've had times where I've gone to bed at 6pm just to avoid the rest of the day and how I'm feeling. I used to wake up in the mornings crying. I'm on sjw now which really works for me, and I haven't reached those lows since I've been on it.
I know what you mean when you say being awake is hell. Do you get affected by the weather? I'm afraid about how I'll get through the winter. Last night I had really bad vertigo type thing for 4 hours. I felt like I was tumbling backwards through space and it wouldn't stop.
But just remember that nothing is permanent and things will improve.
I know what you mean when you say being awake is hell. Do you get affected by the weather? I'm afraid about how I'll get through the winter. Last night I had really bad vertigo type thing for 4 hours. I felt like I was tumbling backwards through space and it wouldn't stop.
But just remember that nothing is permanent and things will improve.
