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Apart from the dp and dr itself, i think my subconcious mind has sort of created a different spin on the way i percieve reality in order to cope with my trauma's and anxiety. It's not that i am delusional but when i first began to develop dp, my whole life started to feel like some sort of grand storybook. Everything became a part of some twisted and unreal experience that centered around my dp and anxiety. This is very hard to explain but i think once my mind was able to break my own perception of reality, my subconcious mind just took that and ran with it. It got so bad that it started to feel like the dp was an age hold entity that my soul had been at war with for thousands of years.i know that sounds crazy but thats how it felt. im sorry that i cant explain this too well, but these feelings are so abstract i can barely put them into words. if you have any thoughts on this or can relate please post them.
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A year ago I smoked alot of pot and got really high. I started to get nervous because thoughts started to flood my mind. I kept thinking that the "good" part of me was fighting a "bad" part of me represented by anxiety. I started telling myself that my mind was a battlefield where this good entity and bad entity waged war. The good would start to win and I would start feeling better, then the bad got the upper hand and I started to slip into anxiety.

I don't know what any of this means. I think its just a way that we try to explain a very scary and confusing situation. Sometimes the need for a concrete explanation leads to some weird thoughts or notions.
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