[Brainsilence02]

Important issues. What I am going to do in my life. The person that I will be. The carreer that I will follow. How am I going to provide things for me, and later, for my family. I don't have the answers, while I should.

Of cource it all starts from lower level questions. How is you schoold performance? What MD are you going to follow? Where (what field and/or industry) do you want to work? What's your dreams? (forget about my dreams, they are probably narcisistic).

Like I am unwilling to think them.

I ask you to deliberately ignore issues like "I don't feel myself". Let's just focus on "What am I going to do?" Everybody else (friends) are starting to get inside things, inside life (jobs, after-graduate diplomas, etc). Someone told me "Why not trying to find a girl? It will help you see things better". That's wrong, it will just be another distraction. Sure it would be good. Perfect. But I need to first get started with life. Or start to get started (if this phrase makes no sense, I can explain it better).

Any throughts? Any comments? Anything?

 

[maria]

I don't think about those things either. Before I obsessed about them but now I just don't care. The way I see it, I don't have any talents so the world doesn't give a crap what I'm going to do. And I don't have any interests either so it doesn't matter. I applied to a new school and I'll go there even though I'm not motivated at all, but that applies to every school in the world.I probably have to do something and since I don't want to work, I'll just study. Hopefully I find some motivation someday, otherwise my life will be horrible.

 

[person3]

if there's nothing you WANT to do, do what you HAVE to do.

 

[Brainsilence02]

Person3, you are right.

But why is it that I find it very frustrating (and of cource difficult) to do something that I feel obliged to do? When I do something that I like and then I am obliged to continue doing it, I stop finding a meaning in it :| Does narcisism has something to do with it? DP/DR surely doesn't (IF.. I have DP/DR).

 

[Sojourner]

But why is it that I find it very frustrating (and of cource difficult) to do something that I feel obliged to do?

So what's the answer? Why do you find it very frustrating to do something that you feel obliged to do? When you were younger, were you forced to do things a lot (other than the normal things parents make children do)?

 

[Brainsilence02]

No, I don't think so. They were constantly nagging about my school performance (they were right of cource). And I always were disapointed about myself (meaning for school performance), but nothing was changing (I wasn't improoving).

My parents were very elastic on other issues as well (for instance, they never made me go to work). And maybe that is the problem (that they were very elastic).

Does this rings any bells?

 

[Guest]

Couldn't you get a job as a translator?

There's work in every industry imaginable for that...I.T, automotive, service, etc...

 

[Brainsilence02]

Err... translator? I only know Greek, and most professionals can speak English better than me. Besides, 80% of the greeks in my age can speak and write satisfying English.

What is I.T.?

Well, I suppose I could get a job in a web-design company, but... that would be the grave of my economics studies, since I will need to learn more things for my job (I still don't know full CSS, I may have to extend to PHP, etc). If I could choose what to like, I would choose to like my current studies. Looking back, when I chosen to follow this kind of studies, I can see that I continued to university only because I didn't want to work, not because I really liked my studies. Right now, I am seeing the situation as "a priori", and I know that my best solution is to like what I am currently studying.

 

[Guest]

What is I.T.?

Information Technology. Computers 'n' shit yo.