[caseyb086]

I had started therapy and new meds. Been on them about 8 weeks- 20mg of lexapro and .75mg of risperdal. In the last 3 weeks there was a definite improvement of my symptoms and I'm like omg yes I'm beating this im seeing the light and I was starting to enjoy life again. And then the past 3-4 days I feel like I'm back at square one in the tenth circle of hell.... I fucking hate this so much, no one deserves to live like this. I am trying sooo hard to stay positive and keep the faith that I will recover but all I want to do is die and escape this pain... I just don't know what to do anymore