Reply's please? Does anyone else feel this?

Hi, I have have had DP severe since June of 2013. I ignored it and felt like there was a blanket over my life( all winter), like it wasn't really me. Now it has been almost a year, and I can't believe that. I was wondering if anyone ever felt like they weren't really using the bathroom when they were. Or has anyone ever tried to bring themselves back and had a panic attack. I feel like I can just snap out of this, but I can't seem to do it. I had a really good day yesterday, but today is bad. What should I do to get out of this? I am 14, also I am taking vitamins and trying to get back into everyday life. Can someone please give me some tips or anything? Also Sunday will be my last day on the form. Monday I am starting to get into a schedule. Also I realized that this started in January when I got into gothic stuff, and I started cutting and being depressed. I am trying to reverse that, I also have stopped alot of it. It feels like I hardly know anyone, and I am scared of everything. I had a depressive episode when I was 11, and I really did feel a bit like this, I was like obsessed with the fear of death. Now it's the opposite. It has been almost a year and I am tired. I also feel like the last few years of my life haven't even been me. Could this be from trying to change who I was? Or hormones? The way my dp came on was this- ( It was there before this but when it got severe it started like this.) Me and my Gf stayed up all night on caffiene and watching scary movies. The next day she fell asleep I stayed up and that day around 7pm I stood up and everything changed I had my first panic attack and everything else happened afterwards. What I mean by it being before that was when i started getting into black stuff, it felt like I was covering up my life, I fed off that and felt myself slowly slipping away. I just want to know if anyone has expierienced anything like this. If so how do you find yourself again? and how do you overcome it?
Sorry for going on and on, Thanks,
Missy



musichead
Apr 26 2014 09:37 PM

missy the only advice i can give you is to talk about any past problems youv'e had in the past (not saying you have any) but for me this helped me tremendously, to the point were my dp just went away on its own with out me trying to do anything to get rid of it. its hard to explain but i think this may help with your overall recovery because ive tried vitamins, going outside alot, excersise and the only thing that has truly helped was me resolving my past problems and trauma, hope this helps

MissySS1
Apr 27 2014 03:06 PM

I actually have been. I also have just started eating healthier and exercising and taking vitamins. It has been almost a year and I am ready to be myself again. I am really trying hard this time. I am tired... and I hate these feelings. Also what did you do when you felt like your DP/DR got so bad you might have a panic attack? Or if you ever felt like your voice wasn't yours? Thank You also

MissySS1
Apr 27 2014 03:10 PM

Also when you were coming out of it did you ever feel like DP was your normal and you were scared to come out of it?

Lovelife
Apr 28 2014 03:23 PM

Hi Missy. I can relate to everything you're describing. I know that is gets scary at times. But always remember this feeling is not hurting you. It's just a feeling. The panic from it makes it feel worse than it actually is. Once it passes for good, you will see. What helped me was being positive, doing activies that I love to do. Keep myself distracted with these activities. Not just to do it but because I actually enjoyed it. Have you noticed that when you're distracted by something you enjoy that the DP/DR is forgotten about for that time period? It doesn't mean it went away but you didn't think about it at that time. Well, keep doing those things. That's what will get you past it. Don't stop living because of it. Live through it and come out stronger after.. Remember this takes time but it will pass. Don't wait for it, live your life and it will come.

MissySS1
Apr 28 2014 06:59 PM

Thank You so much. That comment really helped me Actually today was the first time in one year that I felt like my old normal self for about 45 minutes. It was amazing, and I gained a lot of hope from it. Are you still suffering from this? I wish you the best.

Lovelife
Apr 29 2014 07:42 AM

That's how it comes back Missy. In and out until finally you're clear again. That's where I am now, mostly clear but not fully yet. You ask am I suffering and the answer is... No... Not because the DP is gone but because I am living my life regardless. Hang in there. It gets better.

MissySS1
Apr 29 2014 08:33 AM

That's Great for you! I still wish you the best in your life. Thank You so much for the advice, I woke up feeling more like myself today... but it kind of scared me and now I'm not sure where I am. I am keeping hope though.