Hey everyone! 27 year old female from the UK. New here but not new to DP/DR!!
I've suffered severely twice in the past due to bereavement and illness traumas but managed to overcome it in time with therapy and acceptance. It's now back at full speed after panic attacks at the start of the year (I think they arose from a build up of health anxiety, obsessive thoughts and general stress) it's been a month of hell and I've been so hysterical I had to contact the crisis team a few times. I've now been referred on to community mental health and am in the process of accessing private therapy.
I have had varied periods of relief where I briefly feel like I've reentered my body and am starting to become me again. They only last for a few hours - if that - and then I snap back to a dissociative state where it's hard to believe I ever felt ~normal~. It doesn't feel like it was me who's just experienced that period. It's hard to believe it was me as I'm so detached from myself again and it's as if I can't remember, even though I sort of am consciously aware. It's almost like a memory gap and a blank space where my actions were. My question is: has anyone else experienced this? I'm really scared I have a more sinister dissociative disorder and not DPDR!! It would really reassure me to know others experience the same!
I've suffered severely twice in the past due to bereavement and illness traumas but managed to overcome it in time with therapy and acceptance. It's now back at full speed after panic attacks at the start of the year (I think they arose from a build up of health anxiety, obsessive thoughts and general stress) it's been a month of hell and I've been so hysterical I had to contact the crisis team a few times. I've now been referred on to community mental health and am in the process of accessing private therapy.
I have had varied periods of relief where I briefly feel like I've reentered my body and am starting to become me again. They only last for a few hours - if that - and then I snap back to a dissociative state where it's hard to believe I ever felt ~normal~. It doesn't feel like it was me who's just experienced that period. It's hard to believe it was me as I'm so detached from myself again and it's as if I can't remember, even though I sort of am consciously aware. It's almost like a memory gap and a blank space where my actions were. My question is: has anyone else experienced this? I'm really scared I have a more sinister dissociative disorder and not DPDR!! It would really reassure me to know others experience the same!
