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Hey everyone ive been gere before and decided to make my first post. I origi ally got this from weed when i was 16 and had it for roughly 6-8 months and got over slowly i managed to get over it and was enjoying life somewhat. Now me being the fucking idiot i am decided to take weed again from when i was 21, my friend kept pressuring me to try edibles and i was dru k so i took em.Usually i dont even smoke that much weed since im cautious i really didnt want to have to go through this again but unfortunantly i ended up having a brutal panic attack. it was around feburary and i still have it. Im starting to lose hope and im considering killing myself, i dont see the point anymore i used to have so many hopes and dreams and now i have nothing. I can barley draw when it gets bad i just lay down and rot. It was getting okay for a bit but then i got sick and had to ween off my meds becausd they were making me feel worse. i drank a bit and that also made me feel bad so i stopped altogether. I decided to listen to everyones advice workout, socialize, eat healthy, take vitamins but it didnt do much. I'm not sure if it will take the same time as when i was 16, because it took 6-8months for it to be bearable but im worried i fucked myself over and im gonna deal with this for a long time and if i do ill gladly end my life no way im living like this for a year.Im also slowly starting to hit another low like i did last april which i couldnt even get out of the bed for a month. Ah well all it takes is one night to ruin your life funny how that works but i dont mind paying for my stupidity with my own life. I dont expect anyone to read this but thanks. Also sorry for the length o didnt expect to type this much.
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eh i dont even know anymore i tried alot of supplements and meds and i feel like im getting worse. Last time i had it i was doing well near the sixth month mark but now im doing terrible. I dont mind dying anyways its going to be easier to pull the trigger because i see no point in living life. Funny how it works 7 months ago i was so happy but now i cant even enjoy anything but whatever at this point im just waiting till my date.
Hasnt got better got worse. I too anafranil and clonazepam but that made me feel worse i feel so shitty right now i cant draw or do anything i like. I almost feel like im wasting life i cant enjoy or do anything hanging out with friends doesnt feel as good. Ill probably kill myself, at this point i dont care, why live when life isnt good we were born with choice so i dont see anything wrong with ending your life. I only plan on living till august. If it doesnt get better than august ill go jump off somewhere doesnt matter. Symptoms are getting worse too i may be dealing with benzo withdrawal too but idk trying supplements but they dont work i spent ao much money on this shit and it did fuck all. Im pissed fuck this, fuck weed and fuck my stupid life if only guns were legal in canada id already have a bullet in my brain fuck
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