[KingKibble]

hi! it's been a while, hasn't it?

the uh, reason for that was because i thought i was doing better- which i was, in a sense. I stopped having anxiety attacks and stuff (thought it's mostly because i had them so much i became emotionally repressed), and i was just, generally happier i guess. That was, until recently. ill spare you guys the details but essentially this whole solipsism/derealization stuff started happening the spring/summer (mostly the summer though) of 2018. this is important to state because it helps you understand why i may think these feelings are coming back.

so, onto the explanation. i live in ohio, and it's been getting pretty warm her over the past day or two, which wouldn't be so bad if it didn't remind me so much of late april (when it started happening.) its also been pouring a lot today, and it's pouring right now as i'm typing this- which also reminds me of april. so lately ive been getting this feeling of the whole world not being real and me being the only one and everyone else is just a figment of my imagination and stuff like that (if you want a more in depth description of exactly what my problem was i suggest reading my old posts- though just a warning, because they are prettttty depressing.). it's been making me reaally depressed and stuff so uh,,, it's not good.

i just, don't know what to do anymore. it feels like i'm gonna be stuck feeling this way for the rest of my life.

any feedback on how i can get over this is welcome-

 

[Grindelwald]

Not sure why the weather would affect you like this, other than rain being depressing. I had the solipsism problem, although I didn't really think of it as the rest of the world being a figment of my imagination, but that other people were unconscious zombies and I was the only one truly "alive". This may sound silly, but it really scared the shit out of me. I've even believed that life was not what it seemed, and that it was a sort of "trick" that looped around infinitely and seamlessly. Hard to explain.

Long story short, you're not alone.

 

[KingKibble]

Not sure why the weather would affect you like this, other than rain being depressing. I had the solipsism problem, although I didn't really think of it as the rest of the world being a figment of my imagination, but that other people were unconscious zombies and I was the only one truly "alive". This may sound silly, but it really scared the shit out of me. I've even believed that life was not what it seemed, and that it was a sort of "trick" that looped around infinitely and seamlessly. Hard to explain.

Long story short, you're not alone.

i totally get the whole looping thing too. it's nice to know that someone out there has experienced something similar. (also sorry for the late reply)

 

[fucksolipsism]

Not sure why the weather would affect you like this, other than rain being depressing. I had the solipsism problem, although I didn't really think of it as the rest of the world being a figment of my imagination, but that other people were unconscious zombies and I was the only one truly "alive". This may sound silly, but it really scared the shit out of me. I've even believed that life was not what it seemed, and that it was a sort of "trick" that looped around infinitely and seamlessly. Hard to explain.

Long story short, you're not alone.

Would you mind explaining how you got out of that thought process? I'm really stuck with solipsism at the moment and there seems to be no way out.

 

[Speedy69]

There a such thing I forgot what it’s called but around summer time or spring time depression can set in. It has to do with getting use to the fall with the dead leaves etc the gloomines, the holidays in winter time the the sudden blossoming of flower etc during spring. There is a name for it. My mother suffered with anxiety and depression in her life at times and she also would get depressed and such during summer time. I myself going through dp for the third time twice with solipsism have had these bouts each time summer was coming up. So I can understand and yes it definitely could be it reminds you of what you went through before because you havnt been recovered long enough to forget all the emotions, thoughts, sensations that goes along with it. I sometimes hear songs on the radio or like you said certain months to where it will remind me of the last episodes I dealt with a few years ago.

 

[Speedy69]

One big thing I would recommend is get off this site! Don’t fall into the trap of obsessing and checking in all the time. It will do you no good.