[peaceboy23]

Ok, i'm really down. I was feeling good overall, and then BAM last night I get this horrible feeling of being in a dream, and it was really strong, so i was like "what if I am in a dream?" and all of that. Then tonight at dinner, I got that feeling again. It's the feeling of not being able to go anywhere. There is no where to go, no safe zone. I get hot and freak out. I took a lorazapam, and it helped a bit, but I still felt that bad DR feeling. I feel likle my mind is floating. There are too many thoughts. Sigh. Is it normal to have realy bad relapses, even when you are getting better?

 

[peaceboy23]

Also, ever since I heard about someone I knew getting really confused before she died, I've been freaking out anytime I feel what could be confusion. Like I'll be driving, and now where I am, but then think "am I confused--I'm getting confused, oh God I'm dying." Sometimes I cant' think of the right words to say, or i feel like i'm acting too strongly happy or whatever.

 

[Da'Burgh]

Yeah, from what I know I've heard for it to come and go a lot before it leaves. Heard it was a good sign. That's where I'm at too.

 

[peaceboy23]

Ok, one more thing lol. Does anyone else ever feel like they are constantly waiting for something? I don't know, but at times I feel like I am waiting for something, I just don't know what. It's weird. Is this just anxiety?

 

[Da'Burgh]

Sounds like anxiety to me. Your muscles even tense up and contract many times because you seem to be waiting for something bad to happen...then it never does...

 

[Martinelv]

Does anyone else ever feel like they are constantly waiting for something?

Oh yes, absolutely. I think it's dread. Dread of panic, dread of fear, dread of 'going insane', and sometimes the expectation that something 'weird' is going to happen - like you are on the verge of some transendental enlightenment...just around the corner, tempting but out of reach. Or perhaps we are so shocked at the state we are in, we are waiting (and expecting) for reality to return.

 

[Guest]

Ok, one more thing lol. Does anyone else ever feel like they are constantly waiting for something? I don't know, but at times I feel like I am waiting for something, I just don't know what. It's weird. Is this just anxiety?

I'd say you're waiting to feel "better", instead of enjoying the moment.

 

[M A R S]

Im freaking out just like this right now