[marduk]

Hello , i have had this twice in the past and recovered first after five years then The second time after about six months. In august i got a terrible panic attack after a night of drinking and a few days later depersonalization hit me. I thought i was doing better and managed to get myself to maybe 80% recovered but a few weeks ago i had some terrible anxiety and some derealization, and then suddendly during a theraphy session i relaxed and The dr went away but on My way home Bad depersonalization hit me and has stayed ever since. This Time My symptoms are a lot different than The other times i had it.

My symptoms
Everything feels muted both emotionally and physically

Anhedonia and brainfog when it gets really
Bad

Sometimes body feels numb and i feel disconnected from myself

Head pressure

I have constant anxiety and cant stop thinking about how i have triggered some kind of dp that gets progressively worse until i lose touch with everything. So far The only things that eases it a bit are benzos and alcohol but these are not good long term solutions. Social situations or going outside seems to worsen the symptoms drastically.

i mostly wrote this as a reference for myself but i would like to know if someone has had similar symptoms.

 

[dpdrhaver184]

Hey marduk, sorry you're going through that. Remember - you kicked this thing's ass twice and you can do it again!

I have almost all of your symptoms. I also have the emotional blunting (the muted feeling). I thought it was telling you put it at the top of your list - it is my worst symptom.
I also have anhedonia and brain fog. My brain fog improved a lot after 5-6 months in for no particular reason, then it plateaued. I'm not as sharp as I once was but my brain fog itself is liveable.
I get the body numbness - I used to punch myself in the head to try and feel something but that's very counterproductive since being punched is exactly the sort of thing DP/DR is designed to stop you feeling. I don't recommend it.
I don't have head pressure.
I get the constant anxiety. I've had chronic anxiety all my life, really, but it's a lot worse now. It's hard to believe mine isn't for life, having had it a year with little improvement.
I also get light sensitivity.
Alcohol actually makes mine worse, that's why I quit it. Have never tried benzos.

Best of luck.

 

[marduk]

Hey marduk, sorry you're going through that. Remember - you kicked this thing's ass twice and you can do it again!

I have almost all of your symptoms. I also have the emotional blunting (the muted feeling). I thought it was telling you put it at the top of your list - it is my worst symptom.
I also have anhedonia and brain fog. My brain fog improved a lot after 5-6 months in for no particular reason, then it plateaued. I'm not as sharp as I once was but my brain fog itself is liveable.
I get the body numbness - I used to punch myself in the head to try and feel something but that's very counterproductive since being punched is exactly the sort of thing DP/DR is designed to stop you feeling. I don't recommend it.
I don't have head pressure.
I get the constant anxiety. I've had chronic anxiety all my life, really, but it's a lot worse now. It's hard to believe mine isn't for life, having had it a year with little improvement.
I also get light sensitivity.
Alcohol actually makes mine worse, that's why I quit it. Have never tried benzos.

Best of luck.

Thank you for your reply. I feel a little better now after applying techniques i used earlier. I only really get anhedonia and The Blank mind when it gets really bad i mostly just have that numb feeling and hard time feeling bodily sensations but i do feel a lot more optimistic now. I also wish you the best of luck with your condition.