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·I have been reading an interesting book by author Donna Williams entailed; *Autism and Sensing* (The Unlost Instinct).
Ms Williams states elsewhere that she is a "high functioning" Autistic person. She describes her state of "being" as a young child as a system of sense awareness that exists for all of us prior to a developement of "mind" and prior to a sense of a seperate or even a bodily "I". In this state sense impressions (color, sound, touch etc.) are expierenced in the raw without interpretation or hierarchy of value or meaning. Events occur as shifting patterns of energy in contact with the senses but with no sense of a "self" as being the "experiencer". It is "being" without intention. No rhyme or reason, simply an awareness of the flux of "life substance" undifferentiated and uninterpreted. She states this condition is a type of a system which gives one an experience of "reality" unfiltered. She claims that "knowledge" is acquired in this state but is not rationally or intentionally accessible but only comes to awareness through some form of "triggering". Words fail me to be able to capture what she says in an accurate manner, so I won't try any further. In fact much of my understanding of the book I have gained through intuition. In many ways it is a difficult book to read and understand in the "traditional sense" but I am gaining insight from it and enjoying it so thought I would mention it.
I feel that when I have an attack of DP/DR something "unconcious" usually has triggered it. That is it is usually nothing that I am aware of that sets it off.
I have read that the "experience" of very early childhood trauma can be stored in the psyche somewhere and when awareness passess nearby, somehow or other, psychological, or even "ethereal "toxins are released, and we, although we may not be able to recall any specific event, may nevertheless be psychologically transformed mentally back to this state of experiencing "reality" as we did prior to the construction of a sense of me and other, i.e. a "personal distinct self" if this is the time period when the initial trauma occurred. And as this constructed sense of self we have developed, now under the influence of these unconcious mental/emotional toxins begins to dismantle, we start having feelings of being unreal, or things around us seem unreal and unfamiliar.
As I am reading Ms Williams book I can't help but notice some similarities between how i experience DP/DR and her description of the Autistic state of "pre mind-pre body" she refers to.
Does anyone know if there has been any research which correlates symptoms of DP/DR with some variety of autism. Or is there such a thing as transient autism? It is just that what she describes sounds like what I experience when DP/DR attacks but in my case there is always enough self left to feel the panic.
Thanks for putting up with me.
Sincerely
john
Ms Williams states elsewhere that she is a "high functioning" Autistic person. She describes her state of "being" as a young child as a system of sense awareness that exists for all of us prior to a developement of "mind" and prior to a sense of a seperate or even a bodily "I". In this state sense impressions (color, sound, touch etc.) are expierenced in the raw without interpretation or hierarchy of value or meaning. Events occur as shifting patterns of energy in contact with the senses but with no sense of a "self" as being the "experiencer". It is "being" without intention. No rhyme or reason, simply an awareness of the flux of "life substance" undifferentiated and uninterpreted. She states this condition is a type of a system which gives one an experience of "reality" unfiltered. She claims that "knowledge" is acquired in this state but is not rationally or intentionally accessible but only comes to awareness through some form of "triggering". Words fail me to be able to capture what she says in an accurate manner, so I won't try any further. In fact much of my understanding of the book I have gained through intuition. In many ways it is a difficult book to read and understand in the "traditional sense" but I am gaining insight from it and enjoying it so thought I would mention it.
I feel that when I have an attack of DP/DR something "unconcious" usually has triggered it. That is it is usually nothing that I am aware of that sets it off.
I have read that the "experience" of very early childhood trauma can be stored in the psyche somewhere and when awareness passess nearby, somehow or other, psychological, or even "ethereal "toxins are released, and we, although we may not be able to recall any specific event, may nevertheless be psychologically transformed mentally back to this state of experiencing "reality" as we did prior to the construction of a sense of me and other, i.e. a "personal distinct self" if this is the time period when the initial trauma occurred. And as this constructed sense of self we have developed, now under the influence of these unconcious mental/emotional toxins begins to dismantle, we start having feelings of being unreal, or things around us seem unreal and unfamiliar.
As I am reading Ms Williams book I can't help but notice some similarities between how i experience DP/DR and her description of the Autistic state of "pre mind-pre body" she refers to.
Does anyone know if there has been any research which correlates symptoms of DP/DR with some variety of autism. Or is there such a thing as transient autism? It is just that what she describes sounds like what I experience when DP/DR attacks but in my case there is always enough self left to feel the panic.
Thanks for putting up with me.
Sincerely
john
