[laserdog]

I started with what i know is DP/DR about 10 yrs ago..at the time it was particulaly scary...however after a while i just started to accept that this is it...this must be how i will spend the rest of my life....which seemed massively unfair as everyone around me seemed to be enjoying life so much....as the years passed cant remeber exact time scales but suddenly
i was me again.....i remeber thinking quietly in my head (if i think too loud it might creep back in ) everything seems normal 3d....i was feeling things and i felt part of life.....my thoughts and feelings were purely on my life...things that i knew i liked with DP now had that meaning back...i could relate with people and felt like 1 of them again...instead of constanly living in my head i was now living in my body.....the last few years on the whole have been brilliant....a couple of brief moments...but i somehow had the ability to snap out of it... i could even talk about how i used to feel with DP while still remaing in reality.....(may sound strange) i was part of life like everyone else!!!

However a couple of weeks ago, in a split second i was back to DP...only this time i was unable to snap out....the strange thing for me is...i still know what i used to, i'm probably still acting the same....but nothing feels like me...life doesn't feel right....everything is once more 2d.....everything i think about now when i was feeling ok now is tainted by this feeling....

i know i've done it before, snapping out of it! so i will do it again!!

But having a taste for life which i have over the last few years of DP free wants me needing more..

Hopefully recovery will happen once more...

Anyone got any recovery stories from having 24/7 dp/dr?

 

[enigma]

Anyone got any recovery stories from having 24/7 dp/dr?

I'll get back to you in about twenty or thirty years on that one.

e

 

[Guest]

hi

 

[Guest]

sorry about the short post, i wanted to see my new avitar. i have heard some success stories but i cant remember where to find them, hence the name foggy. annyhow, dp/dr/anxiety/depression/horrible feelings of impending doom can all be cured. i have highly clouded/distorted/hightened/dpdr perception 24/7 and i know i will be ok, i just don't believe it or feel it sometimes. make any sence, maybe kinda sorta. i guess what i am saying is that even when i feel hopless and empty, i still try to remember that everything can be ok, it takes time and work and lots of support. i found a song intro that makes me feel human again, try downloading diamonds on the soles of her shoes by paul simon, the intro makes me cry. keep that head up as much as you can, i find that when all hope is lost, pick yourself up and go for a walk or skateboard ride or bikeride, you get the idea, its training yourself that even when you feel dead, you can still perform in some way. wow thats the longest post i have ever written!

 

[laserdog]

i still do everything i used to ....be it no longer feels natural or me doing it!!...the hard thing is ....is i cant remember how i used to feel when i was ok...

the trouble is i feel like i;'m thinking every minute of the day going over symptoms etc....as soon as i wake up i feel like i'm thinking...when i was normal iremember i just used to live and think when i had to>..(may sound strange)

i'm thinking so much that i seem to be doing everything in auto pilot...its horrible....

...but the worst thing about this is....i look at other people...people who i used to relate with love or hate and i no longer feel them.....i dont feel the same as anyone anymore...

i remember this from last time...last time i seemed to get back to feeling back to myslef but still feeling everything was not real i.e my surroundings....but i learnt to live with this and in turn it seemed to increase my confidence...its just a case of getting back to that state and trying not to think about this 24/7...i so wanna live in my body not my head.....and the questions i keep asking myslef about everything...i dont give a shit about the answers i just wanna forget them and go back to being human!!!! is that so difficult!!!

...one last thought...... :wink: i keep thinking i must be ok because i know i'm not feeling ok! so subconciously the person i used to be is still there its just getting it back in control....can anyone relate to my last thought? coz surely if i was nuts.... i wouldn't no i was nuts?

 

[sming]

Lo laserdog,
I've never had 24/7 DR, more like large chunks of most days, when it was bad. Through REBT and CBT it's far less frequent than it used to be, thanks Christ.

I'm intrigued by this whole "can DP/DR stand alone from anxiety" discussion going on and my experience is that I'm always super-anxious when I DR/DP. Therefore I lend myself to the "anxiety is needed' camp.

Have you had an undesperate think of any causal thoughts or events just before you dropped back into DR this time?

pete

 

[Universal]

I remember that day when I recovered. It seemed like magic, and I could see myself in the mirror again. The REAL me, which was neglected all this time I was DP'd. The real me wasn't a pleasant one however, as anyone would expect. I was all weirded out and stuff, but it was better than being locked in the shell that I was.

Now I have DP back. I have no reason or rhyme for how and why it's back but it is.