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Hey all, just thought I would update. NO I am not cured yet. Big word in that sentence is YET. I am sure that one day I will be cured from dpdr within 2018 and no later than 2019. If it takes longer, than so be it. Recover is a cycle, and it is so simple!
For starters, I got a fat panic attack off a huge dose of edibles. November 2nd of 2017. It was my first time experiencing Mary-Juan-A edibles, NOT my first time experiencing weed. For reference, I ate 250 MG and 10 MG is a typical standard dose. That is 25x more than I should have, and it is equivalent to 10-15 joints THC wise. It was only about 2 - 3 grams total. Aaaaanyways, I smoked once about 4 months ago that was accompanied by dpdr that lasted 4 hours and went away! I didn't even know what it was and thought I was still "high". This will go away for me, and you, and anybody else out there, if you have the right mindset and actually understand what is going on. (Side note: I am 18 y/o in college)
DP/DR isn't scary, it's only annoying. Once when you learn to live with it and have the right mindset, it goes away. I can not say how long it will take since I am experiencing this myself and in the midst of it, but rationally it shouldn't last any longer than a year MAX if you do positive things to make it fade. I've read so many recovery stories and learned so much about this disorder that I could probably write a 400 page book on it. Here's the deal with me and likely you if you got it from weed, if not then substitute that with whatever triggered it. If it came out of the blue, it should still go away because it apparently doesn't matter what caused it.
Okay - so if you're like me, here is the dealio.
Weed -> Panic Attack -> "Fight or Flight" triggered on, since your brain is signaling you're in danger -> DP/DR -> Worry/Stress -> DP/DR and this continues. So essentially, dpdr is your brain thinking that you're in danger 24/7 and in a constant state of DP/DR.
Think of it this way. Your DP/DR is a car. What fuels that dpdr car to keep it going? Anxiety and Fear! If you eliminate Anxiety and Fear, then the car simply can't keep going. Once when the car "runs out of gas", then the "Fight or Flight" is deactivated. Whenever that is deactivated is based on your personal body and brain, and when it feels is right. If you're new to this, then DON'T worry, because it will go away!
Where does this fear and anxiety come from? Well it's pointless information I feel like, but you amygdala. The people who have this for longer than 3-10 years probably have been anxious about anything and everything their entire life I would assume.This would be due to an amygdala that is larger and always "activated". Even if that's you, then you can still recover because you can reverse this and bring your amygdala down *WITHOUT MEDICINE!* Like me! I am NOT using medicine! I encourage you to do the same, because even if you recover then you have to worry about coming off of them and its a big NO-NO - for me at least.
So what can you do to eliminate the fear and anxiety? Well I have a personal list that you can steal my ideas from. A lot of these ideas are pretty much in every recovery forum.
Accept, It's kind of simple. Just accept that you have dpdr. If anything, be proud that you have it. It WILL go away 99.9%, you just need to give your mind and body time and rest
Distract, I personally play a shit ton of video games. I get into Madden, Call of Duty, GTA V, Rocket League, the list goes on. I play so much video games. Before this, I played video games, but NOWHERE near what I do now. And I go to school. And work. So my days are pretty jam packed. But do what you want to do! Watch movies! Just don't do anything that will cause stress! Anything to get your mind off this
Exercise, I exercise pretty regularly. Great for distraction, and brings you into your own body and it is a natural antidepressant! Win, win, win situation!
Eat healthy, Eliminate high sugar and caffeine! If you can't do this for a year or two then your chances of recovery are probably going to go down! Would you rather drink a cup of coffee, or deal with the bull sheet for another day? Up to you but I know what I would choose!
Listen to music, For me, music is basically an antidepressant also and makes me feel alive and emotions. Listen to whatever you want, but I suggest anything that can make you feel emotions (happy, sad, pumped, etc) because one of the problems I have is I lack emotions. I am starting to gain them back, because I watch movies or listen to music that makes me feel emotions.
Give it time, I am a month and 3 weeks into this, and I already feel and see improvement. Recovery for me is not linear, but it is. I have good days and bad days, but the good days are starting to outweigh the bad. And when I think about it, where I am now was way better than last week. Last week was better than the one before. And so on. Each week is an improvement in my symptoms, but day to day is random. I used to have bad days all day every day, but now if I have a "bad day", it is once in 3-4 days and only lasts an hour or so.
With the right mindset, anybody can achieve "recovery". Just don't worry about when it will come. It will come if you don't focus on when. Likewise, I would assume 6-9 months average to feel 100%, but everybody is different so don't worry! It only took me 3 weeks of doing what i listed above to feel *around* 75% myself. I am comfortable where I am at, communicating wise and living life. All my symptoms are basically gone besides for my vision and tired mind/body. Don't freak out if you relapse or have a bad day! Even if you were completely normal without dpdr, you would still have a bad day here and there relentless!
Go play your mind out of video games and rank up to the max level, or watch a shit load of movies, or draw, or read, or play an instrument, or WHATEVER MAKES YOU HAPPY and we will see you here in the "recovery section" in a year or two!
If you have any questions, drop a comment!
For starters, I got a fat panic attack off a huge dose of edibles. November 2nd of 2017. It was my first time experiencing Mary-Juan-A edibles, NOT my first time experiencing weed. For reference, I ate 250 MG and 10 MG is a typical standard dose. That is 25x more than I should have, and it is equivalent to 10-15 joints THC wise. It was only about 2 - 3 grams total. Aaaaanyways, I smoked once about 4 months ago that was accompanied by dpdr that lasted 4 hours and went away! I didn't even know what it was and thought I was still "high". This will go away for me, and you, and anybody else out there, if you have the right mindset and actually understand what is going on. (Side note: I am 18 y/o in college)
DP/DR isn't scary, it's only annoying. Once when you learn to live with it and have the right mindset, it goes away. I can not say how long it will take since I am experiencing this myself and in the midst of it, but rationally it shouldn't last any longer than a year MAX if you do positive things to make it fade. I've read so many recovery stories and learned so much about this disorder that I could probably write a 400 page book on it. Here's the deal with me and likely you if you got it from weed, if not then substitute that with whatever triggered it. If it came out of the blue, it should still go away because it apparently doesn't matter what caused it.
Okay - so if you're like me, here is the dealio.
Weed -> Panic Attack -> "Fight or Flight" triggered on, since your brain is signaling you're in danger -> DP/DR -> Worry/Stress -> DP/DR and this continues. So essentially, dpdr is your brain thinking that you're in danger 24/7 and in a constant state of DP/DR.
Think of it this way. Your DP/DR is a car. What fuels that dpdr car to keep it going? Anxiety and Fear! If you eliminate Anxiety and Fear, then the car simply can't keep going. Once when the car "runs out of gas", then the "Fight or Flight" is deactivated. Whenever that is deactivated is based on your personal body and brain, and when it feels is right. If you're new to this, then DON'T worry, because it will go away!
Where does this fear and anxiety come from? Well it's pointless information I feel like, but you amygdala. The people who have this for longer than 3-10 years probably have been anxious about anything and everything their entire life I would assume.This would be due to an amygdala that is larger and always "activated". Even if that's you, then you can still recover because you can reverse this and bring your amygdala down *WITHOUT MEDICINE!* Like me! I am NOT using medicine! I encourage you to do the same, because even if you recover then you have to worry about coming off of them and its a big NO-NO - for me at least.
So what can you do to eliminate the fear and anxiety? Well I have a personal list that you can steal my ideas from. A lot of these ideas are pretty much in every recovery forum.
Accept, It's kind of simple. Just accept that you have dpdr. If anything, be proud that you have it. It WILL go away 99.9%, you just need to give your mind and body time and rest
Distract, I personally play a shit ton of video games. I get into Madden, Call of Duty, GTA V, Rocket League, the list goes on. I play so much video games. Before this, I played video games, but NOWHERE near what I do now. And I go to school. And work. So my days are pretty jam packed. But do what you want to do! Watch movies! Just don't do anything that will cause stress! Anything to get your mind off this
Exercise, I exercise pretty regularly. Great for distraction, and brings you into your own body and it is a natural antidepressant! Win, win, win situation!
Eat healthy, Eliminate high sugar and caffeine! If you can't do this for a year or two then your chances of recovery are probably going to go down! Would you rather drink a cup of coffee, or deal with the bull sheet for another day? Up to you but I know what I would choose!
Listen to music, For me, music is basically an antidepressant also and makes me feel alive and emotions. Listen to whatever you want, but I suggest anything that can make you feel emotions (happy, sad, pumped, etc) because one of the problems I have is I lack emotions. I am starting to gain them back, because I watch movies or listen to music that makes me feel emotions.
Give it time, I am a month and 3 weeks into this, and I already feel and see improvement. Recovery for me is not linear, but it is. I have good days and bad days, but the good days are starting to outweigh the bad. And when I think about it, where I am now was way better than last week. Last week was better than the one before. And so on. Each week is an improvement in my symptoms, but day to day is random. I used to have bad days all day every day, but now if I have a "bad day", it is once in 3-4 days and only lasts an hour or so.
With the right mindset, anybody can achieve "recovery". Just don't worry about when it will come. It will come if you don't focus on when. Likewise, I would assume 6-9 months average to feel 100%, but everybody is different so don't worry! It only took me 3 weeks of doing what i listed above to feel *around* 75% myself. I am comfortable where I am at, communicating wise and living life. All my symptoms are basically gone besides for my vision and tired mind/body. Don't freak out if you relapse or have a bad day! Even if you were completely normal without dpdr, you would still have a bad day here and there relentless!
Go play your mind out of video games and rank up to the max level, or watch a shit load of movies, or draw, or read, or play an instrument, or WHATEVER MAKES YOU HAPPY and we will see you here in the "recovery section" in a year or two!
If you have any questions, drop a comment!
